I used to be attracted solely to the Carmelites, but after discerning with them and finding that my vocation was elsewhere, I started to notice that I am more attracted to the Franciscans. I visited the Franciscan Sisters of the Renewal and I felt like I understood them more than I ever understood St. Teresa of Avila or St. John of the Cross. The greats of Carmel confused me because their mysticism was so far beyond my range of knowledge or understanding. St. Francis, however, is very simple and uncomplicated. When I explained this to the Vocation Director of the CFRs, she understood what I meant and said that was a very good sign that I might be called to the Franciscan spirituality.
However, I am investigating the Dominican spirituality as well. I am really drawn to the order of preachers (O.P.) and their emphasis on study and preaching. They are a very Marian order (being that St. Dominic received the rosary from Our Lady).
I am hoping to visit a Dominican convent or monastery next to compare my experiences and see if I am more attracted to the Franciscans or Dominicans. Since I am unsure at this point, I just say I am
Marian.