It is interesting to compare my attitude to doing bad things when I was a believer and now. when I believed I saw bad things I did as sin. I sought forgiveness for me, and in hope of eternal life. Now when I do bad things I still feel sorrow i did them, but seek to change because of the impact of these things on others. Mostly I define ‘bad’ in the same way I did when I was a Catholic, with the notable exception of anything to do with sex between consenting adults. This change of mind has not been greatly to my advantage, however, as Mrs Hokomai and I have been together and exclusive for many decades. Believers often seem to think that if they stopped believing they would feel fine about murder, genocide and randomly going our at raping others. It’s nt like that! My view of death is different, and my view of suffering, which I am unable to regard as anything other than bad, unlike many believers. I also miss the fellowship of the Church, and I have to say that people united only by unbelief are not necessarily nicer to be with than those united by belief!