What do I do about communion tomorrow?

[Butaperson]

Last week, I was really happy to learn that in the USA it’s possible to wait until Trinity Sunday to receive communion.
Unfortunately, I’m still not ready.
I could write pages and pages on why I’m not ready. I don’t know how much of it matters.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I cannot do Catholicism alone. I don’t know what I’m doing. I know I’m practicing it all wrong and it’s causing severe issues. I need help.
I want to ask about talking to a spiritual director, but it will take time. And I need to receive tomorrow.
It’s possible, I think, that I could pull an all-nighter, scrape out a sketchy examination of conscience, make it to confession and try to receive. It’s possible, but I don’t think it’s likely. It’s been a very long time since I slept properly and the last time I pulled an all-nighter to get to confession on time, I still couldn’t receive communion because I was worried about receiving when I’m far too tired to think clearly. And it’s doubtful that I’ll be able to think deeply and efficiently enough to finish my EOC to the point where I’m satisfied with it, anyways. It’s already 10 PM.

I don’t know if my circumstances are mitigating at all. But they might be. My emotional state is very bad right now. Today was the closest I’ve come to legitimate self harm in about a year. It was 100% due to the ****** way I’m been practicing my faith, which has been causing me so much anxiety that I actually, legitimately snapped a few weeks ago and just sort of stopped caring about religion at all. I haven’t been praying or worrying at all since my last confession, pretty much. Until I started thinking about the Easter Obligation. I’m trying to change this way of thinking and doing, but it’s going to take time. And I don’t know what I should do in the meantime. I’m terrified.

 

[Butaperson]

ALSO, on the note of talking to a spiritual director, I meant to ask about that, too. How on earth should I go about doing that?

 

[Gertabelle]

I go to confession every week or two, and whether I believe I’m in mortal sin or a state of grace, my examination of conscience usually takes the time I’m standing in line.

If you suffer from scruples, definitely do not stay up all night worrying over what’s a sin and what’s not, and all the ways you are still imperfect, and on and on and on.

What you need is a good night’s sleep. So turn off the computer, put some quiet music or white noise (we use a fan) on in your room, and get to sleep. Stop thinking so much about yourself and meditate on the love and mercy of God. When your brain draws you back to yourself, return your thoughts to Him – His mercy, His goodness, His gentleness, His compassion. When you start thinking, “but I… and I… and then I …” turn your thoughts into “You, Lord… You, Lord… You Lord…”

May God bless you!

Now turn off that computer and get to sleep! :yawn:

I’ll do the same.

 

[Beryllos]

Please don’t wait until you are perfect. Jesus wants to share his goodness with sinners (like us).

 

[Casilda]

I hope you got some rest last night.

cantius.org/go/sacraments/holy_eucharist/effects_of_the_holy_eucharist/

“…Though Holy Communion does not per se remit mortal sin, it has nevertheless the third effect of “blotting out venial sin and preserving the soul from mortal sin” (Council of Trent, Sess. XIII, cap. ii). The Holy Eucharist is not merely a food, but a medicine as well. The destruction of venial sin and of all affection to it, is readily understood on the basis of the two central ideas mentioned above. Just as material food banishes minor bodily weaknesses and preserves man’s physical strength from being impaired, so does this food of our souls remove our lesser spiritual ailments and preserve us from spiritual death…”

 

[thistle]

Last week, I was really happy to learn that in the USA it’s possible to wait until Trinity Sunday to receive communion.
Unfortunately, I’m still not ready.
I could write pages and pages on why I’m not ready. I don’t know how much of it matters.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I cannot do Catholicism alone. I don’t know what I’m doing. I know I’m practicing it all wrong and it’s causing severe issues. I need help.
I want to ask about talking to a spiritual director, but it will take time. And I need to receive tomorrow.
It’s possible, I think, that I could pull an all-nighter, scrape out a sketchy examination of conscience, make it to confession and try to receive. It’s possible, but I don’t think it’s likely. It’s been a very long time since I slept properly and the last time I pulled an all-nighter to get to confession on time, I still couldn’t receive communion because I was worried about receiving when I’m far too tired to think clearly. And it’s doubtful that I’ll be able to think deeply and efficiently enough to finish my EOC to the point where I’m satisfied with it, anyways. It’s already 10 PM.

I don’t know if my circumstances are mitigating at all. But they might be. My emotional state is very bad right now. Today was the closest I’ve come to legitimate self harm in about a year. It was 100% due to the ****** way I’m been practicing my faith, which has been causing me so much anxiety that I actually, legitimately snapped a few weeks ago and just sort of stopped caring about religion at all. I haven’t been praying or worrying at all since my last confession, pretty much. Until I started thinking about the Easter Obligation. I’m trying to change this way of thinking and doing, but it’s going to take time. And I don’t know what I should do in the meantime. I’m terrified.

There is no such thing as legitimate self harm!

 

[Jon_S_1]

Last week, I was really happy to learn that in the USA it’s possible to wait until Trinity Sunday to receive communion.
Unfortunately, I’m still not ready.
I could write pages and pages on why I’m not ready. I don’t know how much of it matters.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I cannot do Catholicism alone. I don’t know what I’m doing. I know I’m practicing it all wrong and it’s causing severe issues. I need help.
I want to ask about talking to a spiritual director, but it will take time. And I need to receive tomorrow.
It’s possible, I think, that I could pull an all-nighter, scrape out a sketchy examination of conscience, make it to confession and try to receive. It’s possible, but I don’t think it’s likely. It’s been a very long time since I slept properly and the last time I pulled an all-nighter to get to confession on time, I still couldn’t receive communion because I was worried about receiving when I’m far too tired to think clearly. And it’s doubtful that I’ll be able to think deeply and efficiently enough to finish my EOC to the point where I’m satisfied with it, anyways. It’s already 10 PM.

I don’t know if my circumstances are mitigating at all. But they might be. My emotional state is very bad right now. Today was the closest I’ve come to legitimate self harm in about a year. It was 100% due to the ****** way I’m been practicing my faith, which has been causing me so much anxiety that I actually, legitimately snapped a few weeks ago and just sort of stopped caring about religion at all. I haven’t been praying or worrying at all since my last confession, pretty much. Until I started thinking about the Easter Obligation. I’m trying to change this way of thinking and doing, but it’s going to take time. And I don’t know what I should do in the meantime. I’m terrified.

Jesus loves you, no one is perfect.

What do we say in mass.

The Confiteor. Then before communion. “Lord I am not worthy to have you enter under my roof. But only say the word and my soul shall be healed”.

You are facing serious scruples. Very serious. You need to meet with a priest and also a licensed counselor.

You don’t have to live your life this way. There is healing in Christ. He did the work for you. Trust him.