What does God say about suffering? Please help

[randirhoades]

Beloved friends,

I want to take suffering that God sends my way, and do it silence so that God hears me, make it more powerful and for the atonement of sins of the world. I want to partner with the Virgin Mary on this but I have so many hurtful and painful illnesses, I don’t know how to do it. I keep thinking can I use my Fibromyalgia (yikes on most days), or my cluster headaches, (someone hit me on the head and knock me out!) how about my excruciating pain in my lumbar, (please someone get a knife and cut out the pain by coring it like you would do an apple) or my ulcer, (ouchie) spastic colon, (ouchie again) esophagus reflux, (it burns! it burns! Oh sorry. Has anyone seen that movie?) (please forgive me for all of this) It has me in a tizzy and I really want to do this for human kind. Suffer in silence so it will mean more.

Please know that humor gets me through the day and is therapy. And please don*t judge me as not being serious. I am.

However, when I have an espisode, I hear my self moan and groan and sometimes with my cluster headaches which hurt so much, I cry and and again wish I had a hammer. Medicine doesn’t work.

Please help me with this. I love all of God’s children and DO NOT want ANYONE to go to hell even those who trespass against me. I cannot think about being without God. Makes me shake.

What should I do? Any responses to my post are appreciated in advance.

Love ya’ll,

Sheila

 

[baltobetsy]

Sheila, honey, I think it’s OK to moan and cry some of the time. Suffering in silence is sometimes just too much. I’ve had my share of painful illnesses, too, though not as many as yours, especially all at once. I know what it’s like to sit on the bed, rocking back and forth, moaning and praying and just waiting and hoping for the pain to lighten just a little. Jesus can certainly not be offended if you cry out to Him. As long as you surrender your will to Him and accept your sufferings as a means of sanctification for yourself, your loved ones and the world, you cry and moan all you need to. I mean that sincerely.

My pain usually responds to medication, and consequently, I have been most cowardly about it plenty of times, just watching the clock and waiting for the time I can have more pain meds. This I have taken to Confession, because I feel I have wasted an opportunity offered to me to suffer in union with Christ for the good of others. The grace of confession really does help, as does the advice of a good and caring confessor. I can’t recommend that highly enough.

Maybe you could assign a particular intention to each of your different kinds of pain - your headache for your parents, your back pain for vocations, your stomach pain for something else dear to your heart… Then each different pain reminds you of someone or something you really care about. Do you think that might help?

I also think laughing is brilliant - keep doing it!

Put your suffering in Our Lady’s hands and she will perfect it for you and offer it to God all spiffy and nice, and He will be so pleased.

God bless you, dear.

 

[kentuckyliz]

Colossians 1:24

I try to hide my pain from others and not grimace…I live in pain and I could end up a sourpuss if I let it register on my face.

Thank you for being a mighty prayer warrior.

 

[randirhoades]

Thank you for the replies. I also wish I could have worn the crown of thorns or did something to alleviate the pain that Jesus went through at His painful moments. I cry hard over His crucification.

Love ya’ll,

§heila