I hope no one minds what I think will be a very controversial post. I’m sure some are going to want to condemn me for it, which is fine, because I’ve done the same thing many times myself, unfortunately.
This is a discussion of Vatican II and its aftermath, so I feel my views might at least add a little something to the discussion. I believe that some good has come since the 1960’s, but I believe that it’s now time to return to tradition in order to preserve Christianity whole and inviolate for future generations.
I’ve wracked my brain to try and understand the contemporary situation. I’ve struggled for months to try to figure out why so many wise, time-tested Christian scholars defend trends which to me border on iconoclasm and obvious destructive modernism. I don’t think I’ll ever grasp it. All I know is that what they laud is diametrically opposed to my own life experiences, thoughts, values, etc. So while I am struggle to honor them as my elders, I have to oppose them at almost every turn, and that fills me with not a little pain. Since Christianity is still relatively new to me (at least trying to live by it is), I’m aware that I’m not wise.
C.S. Lewis once said, “I am a converted pagan living among apostate puritans.” The first part of the statement applies to me (though the latter does not apply to my opponents on this forum). I am a former liberal postmodernist, who denied the existence of God, objective truth, traditional gender roles, sexuality, etc. I dismissed everything Christian as social constructs. As culturally-based illusions. Unfortunately, many of these pseudo-pagan elements still flare up from time to time. I have to fight them off.
I converted to Catholicism as a teen and walked away from it almost as soon as I converted. The dogma I had been reading, the truths, the descriptions of the ancient liturgy, were totally absent. It didn’t differ all that much from the phony, tired liberalism my professors were teaching me, so I walked out. I’m not proud of it but I left Catholicism in the dust, despite being married in the Church.
The proponents of Vatican II cannot see what to me is so obvious- that the world has changed dramatically since 1970, and the Spirit of Vatican II is no longer relevant to modern life.
Most of my friends (even myself) are practically pagans. Instead of Zeus or Odin, however, we elevate our own selfish desires to practical godhood. Having seen the phony artifice that Christianity has become in most areas of the U.S., we leave it in the dust as outdated superstition.
Whereas “modern” life filled people with a sense of loss and anomie, of a desire to make relevant and renew the traditional culture, “postmodern” life, by which I mean the life of the youth in the 21st century, is a life of virtual savagery. A life completely without God, in which the idea of God is mocked, in which women and men are mere sex objects and little else, in which wealth, fame, and beauty are the only worthy pursuits, in which all traditional values are subjects of ironic mockery, and in which human beings are disposable. Relativism is not this encroaching dogma that we have to fight against- it is the established norm.
So when I analyze Vatican II and its aftermath, I don’t look to the past. I don’t care about situations in which little old ladies said their rosaries because they couldn’t understand the Mass. I look to the future and see a society that will eventually become paganized. Pope Benedict said that, “We cannot stand idly by while society descends into paganism.” Well, he was right on the money. That is happening all around us.
What do I do? When I was a postmodernist, I was praised by virtually everyone I knew. I even had the opportunity to present a paper at an academic convention in San Francisco. Unfortunately for my mentors, I started to read more about Catholicism right before I was going to submit my abstract, and changed my mind. I moved. I went to the traditional Mass, and now my friends think I am a lunatic. And I admit, sometimes I look at my child in her chapel veil at Mass and I question whether or not I am raising her in a faith for which she or her children might one day be legally persecuted by a secular society which is degenerating into paganism.
What does all of this have to do with Vatican II? Since Vatican II, we have developed what I like to call a “soft” religion. A religion in which the last four things are never mentioned, in which all are saved, in which a hard stance is looked down upon, in which doctrine and liturgy are neutered, in which the sacrificial priest is a mere celibate social worker, in which ritual is destroyed so that a democratized liturgy can flourish. And it no longer works. We see the Church in peril. We see the closed parishes, the dried up convents and monasteries, and most alarmingly, we see a future in which we proclaim Christ in a vacuum. We get on these forums, trying to spread the faith, and we end up in debates where one side supports a religion that so many of us walked out of.
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