perplexed:
I always say to god in my Prayers please help us sell this house if it be your will or give us peace here. I also ask him to show us what he wants us to do if we are to remain here.
unless you have been in our situation you don’t know what it is to live in a decaying area. I guess all my other neighbors that moved were wrong also. We just kept fighting while they gave up and sold or rented to not so nice folks. I won’t do that to the few good neighbors that will remain after we move.
I just wish I had peace in my life. Whats wrong with wanting to move to a "nicer area " with less problems? Right now God wants us here and here we shall remain untill he sees fit to allow us to move. I have resigned myself to that.We fought this for 5 years and finally put our home on the market over 1.5 years now so you see we have tried and tried.
God knows my heart!
You say you ask God to have your house sell
or give you peace.
If it is His will that you remain, can you see where your will to leave is keeping you from feeling any peace He may be sending your way? Peace comes from accepting His will especially when you finally give in to it knowing it wasn’t the way you expected it to turn out.
Hope is a wonderful gift, but sometimes I find hoping for
my turnout of events makes me more miserable as God is trying to show me His plans for me. I really don’t like the feeling of axiety and restlessness so when it gets to me I go to Eucharistic adoration and just talk to Jesus.
It’s a humbling experience for me because I don’t want to give up my goals and aspirations, they’re good ones, they’d help me and a lot of other people so why isn’t this happening? I share my frustrations with Him. And then I just sit there quietly allowing Him to speak back. In the end, He’s always right, and usually He’s telling me to stop struggling over this…that I’m in good hands, I can trust Him, it’ll be ok and the sooner I let Him lead the sooner I will be at peace.
Most times, it’s after I finally give up my wishes over to His wishes that events change in my life - not the way I had wanted them to but even a better way that I couldn’t have foreseen. The change I had been seeking
does take place - but it isn’t
the change I was anticipating and working toward and that’s why it was taking so long.
I recognize that you’re prayers are sincere and honest, and they are good prayers, really. But it seems you aren’t really trusting Him and that’s why you are experiencing disappointment and you’re feeling weary and worn out. You’re justifiably afraid He really does want you to stay put and you have no idea how you could possible do that and maintain your sanity, but He wouldn’t ask you to do it if He wasn’t going to be there to help you through it. You have to trust in that. You also have to remain open to the possibility that there is another solution to your problem He is trying to present to you but you aren’t seeing it because you’re so focused on your solution of moving out.
I am suggesting you let go of your plans for 20 minutes, release your mind and heart to Him and ask the Holy Spirit to lift the veil from your eyes and heart so that you can truly see what God has planned for you with regard to this matter.