I can relate very much to this young man’s experiences. I also find it easier to pray at Mass during quiet Masses (ones similar to Low Masses, but in the OF). I don’t find the chant making it difficult to pray. However, if the chant isn’t done well, it can make it more difficult. I’m really blessed to have a brilliant choir director who has studied chant extensively. He is quite possibly one of the best in the nation
On more solemn occasions, I’m usually in charge of servers, so I have more to “do,” which makes it sometimes harder to pray, but you just keep in mind that in doing this, you are helping others to pray, and you just make your role your prayer, similar to how you make your work your prayer.
But even then, one trick I’ve learned is that you just have to find little moments to pray during the Mass. You may be busy handling 15 servers, but every once and a while, you are able to just really take in the beauty and goodness of the liturgy and of the Lord. During the canon is a great example. Once you get past the first few sentences, and everything is in place. I can just stand there and pray. It’s great. I agree that occasionally, I do miss cues, but it usually works out. The pure joy that you occasionally receive when assisting at a reverent and prayerful Mass is amazing. It only happens once and a while, but it’s awesome.
For example, one Mass I was MC, and doing the bells. We got to the consecration, and I was really “into it.” It got to the consecration of the precious body, the priest finished, elevated the host. I was still deep in prayer. Here’s what went through my head in the first 2 seconds of the elevation:
- Me: Lord Jesus, you are so great. Thank you for coming here, so that I can recieve you in a few moments…
- [no bells ring]
- [still no bells ring, thurifer just goes ahead without the bells]
- me: Hmm… who is doing the bells? Who did I assign that to? [glancing around]
- me: duh!! That was me!
- [Rings bells with embarrassed look on face]
Yeah, I got a couple comments about it after…