Cradle Catholics have been raised in the faith, no doubt :clapping: , and this is a foreign concept to me…my question is two part:
- Do you have a personal relationship with Christ?
- How did that relationship begin and what was the state of your soul up until that point in time?
Thx!
Although unaware of it, my personal relationship with Christ began when I was conceived and my rational soul was created
ex nihilo in person by God.
That relationship grew and matured as many relationships do, as I grew and matured. Months after my birth, I was justified in person by God through the sacrament of baptism, when I was made holy by Him and consecrated to Him for the first time. As I grew to know Him better, I came to understand the many wonderful things he’s done for me, and grew in my love and faith in Him.
Years later, in elementary school, I began to be influenced more by the world than by God. In retrospect, I understand that my guardian angel was always their to protect me, urging me toward the right path. Yet I sadly allowed–through the faulty use of my freewill–other unholy influences to affect my soul. I chose sin contrary to God’s will for me. I took for granted the love of God, and my love and faith in Him grew lukewarm. As a teenager I became quite slothful with respect to worship of the Lord and the practice of my Holy Religion, until I had no prayer life to speak of. My soul undoubtedly suffered from me ignoring my relationship with Christ, yet Christ kept calling me to Him. I never doubted that Christ was my Lord and Savior, but I lacked the “obedience of faith” (Rom 1:5; Rom 16:26). Consequently, due to my deliberate grave disobedience to Christ’s will, my soul became unjust, “severed from Christ…fallen away from grace” (Eph 5:4).
Through Divine providence, manifest in a series of grace-filled encounters with many number of people, most especially my relationship with my wife and witness to her conversion from atheism, and through much grace, conversion and suffering of my own, I realized I had been taking for granted what God has given me, and began to “turn again” (Gk
epistrepho; cf. Matt 13:15; Acts 3:19, 26:18, 28:27; Luk 1:17, 22:32) toward Him, and to seek from Him His will for me.
After having confessed the sins of the prior 25 years in the Sacrament of Penance, my soul was cleansed by the sacramental grace of Christ and I consequently began to worship God and prayerfully study and practice my Holy Religion more meaningfully, which has made my relationship with Christ more deep and loving than ever before.