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During mass when we say "we lift up our hearts to you O’Lord"i envision myself literally lifting up my heart to God.i am curious? as to if anyone else does this and what do the see for the heart they are lifting up to God…i have sereval i lift up…1)a heart encased in stone that needs to smashed,this is when i feel i have been prideful and or unloving.2)a blob ouzzing blackness;this was my old heart of the time i was living sin…3) a heart that is a pile of ash,my old heart after coming into the fire of His mercy.4) a living heart covered with scars.for the times i remember the way i was.5)a living heart with wounds;for the times when i haven’t been too bad but still venial sins…6) a healthy living heart,on the few occassions i feel like i am truly worthy of His love…most often i offer my heart of ash cause most of the time that is what i feel i am left with,due to my own failures…once did i ever think there might be a speck of gold dust in the ash to please God with and even then i asked Him to take and keep that tiny speck of gold…anyhow me just going to throw this out there,i not looking for support/advice just curious as to if anyone else might feel this way or am i just wierd…but i will accept any and all advice/support