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ineedofmercy
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I mortal sinned early today so now the rest of day feels like I’m making no progress against my addiction because my days free is still 0.
I feel like I already ruined my day
I feel like my summer was wasted and its not even all my fault it just went and my froends couldn’t be around I’m 15 I don’t have alot of these left
It’s very discouraging and makes me down/empty
I feel like I’m doing my entire life wrong because I’m afraid to do it right
I became truly religious like 2 or 3 years ago when I found out I was mortal sinning
So I feel like I’m trying to ride a bike for the first time
I scared of falling and getting laughed at but I still want to do it
Sometimes I wonder if this only ends why I’m 16 or 18 when my childhood is dead
It’s a double edged sword
I will keep fighting but I feel drained today
I’m not very posistive and I hate this empty feeling
It’s not something I can just make leave
Only others can
Sorry of this a long rant
I’ve said it before and I will say it again
You guys are the only I’m not shy to speak these feelings to besides God
I feel like I already ruined my day
I feel like my summer was wasted and its not even all my fault it just went and my froends couldn’t be around I’m 15 I don’t have alot of these left
It’s very discouraging and makes me down/empty
I feel like I’m doing my entire life wrong because I’m afraid to do it right
I became truly religious like 2 or 3 years ago when I found out I was mortal sinning
So I feel like I’m trying to ride a bike for the first time
I scared of falling and getting laughed at but I still want to do it
Sometimes I wonder if this only ends why I’m 16 or 18 when my childhood is dead
It’s a double edged sword
I will keep fighting but I feel drained today
I’m not very posistive and I hate this empty feeling
It’s not something I can just make leave
Only others can
Sorry of this a long rant
I’ve said it before and I will say it again
You guys are the only I’m not shy to speak these feelings to besides God