What's wrong with me?

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In the meantime consider meditating on events in Jesus’ earthly life via praying the Holy Rosary. Also, see if there’s a Sunday Mass for shut-ins that you can pick up. I’m including you in my prayers. Hang in there.
You mean on TV?

EWTN has Mass every day. And you can get it on your computer.
 
Update: I started feeling sick again on Monday night. I didn’t pay attention to it, and I felt better on Tuesday, but on Wednesday I was in a lot of pain. I went to the hospital and got some tests done to me (blood, urine, etc.). Everything was fine. The doctor didn’t find anything that could be causing me problems. She gave me some medication for the pain and for my stomach and bowels, and told me to come back to the hospital if I got too much more pain or fever. I don’t feel completely fine yet, but at least the pain is not bothering me that much.
 
I suffered the way you do too. Hope you can find wisdom in my experience.

The stomach problem: twisting in pain, stomach as if about to explode, burning and stinging sensation, feeling of throwing up, bloating, bowel movement disorder, sometime frequently going toilet but nothing comes out or only little yet painful and etc.

I always experience that every time I have a church project being conceptualized. The worst was when I have the desire to put up a prayer group.I pursued despite of the trouble. I suspected it was devil’s work trying to stop me because it even block my understanding as I compile what prayers I should include in the prayers. It took me about a month to compile for the prayerbook in intense suffering

Not minding the problem, I approached our parish priest and told about my plan. When he said yes, my pain diminished about a half. My problem with the understanding was solved by making a good confession. But as we started with the prayer devotions, my pain and suffering stopped as if nothing happened. That, I am certain, it was the devil who is causing me the trouble.

Another disturbing experience was during our preparation for the dedication of our newly constructed big church. While at work, I was experiencing a disturbing feeling, that something will happen. Like in any other experiences, I didn’t mind the suffering, I just go on with my responsibility. The afternoon after the dedication, we received news about the stomach troubles of almost all our guests. During the night, I suffered my pain. I just thought it was just an ordinary Loss Bowel Movement. The second time I went back to the comfort room, I was certain it was not just an ordinary LBM. My stomach moved so violently painful but no bowel came out. As if something is about to come out ripping my stomach. I decided to go back to my room and took a holy water. As I prayed and made sign of the cross in my stomach with the holy water. The pain and the contraction stopped. That moment, I knew it was the devil causing the trouble. So, I prayed for the rest of our guests. I was delighted to know that their sufferings stopped in almost the same time my suffering stopped.

You are in the way of returning to the faith… as in my case, trying to do good things- the stomach and bowel problem sets in. I continued in my plans; talk to the priest, have good confession, prayed and applied sacramentals and my problems disappeared.

In your case, the doctors can not categorically point out whats causing you the trouble. What makes more intriguing in your case is that, it only appears when you are trying to go back to the church or praying. And if that is the case, the devil is trying to stop you.

Like the way I did, I pursued every good things I planned to do. I just pursued my way. Continue though to visit your doctor. Visit also your priest. Like in my case, just telling my plan of a prayer group to our priest diminished my suffering. Tell your priest too and affirmed your plan to go back to the church and prepare for a confession. It might help you. Just continue you plan to go back to the church, like in my case, my suffering from the devil just ceased.
 
Thank you so much for sharing your experience, JoeyPio. Your description of your symptoms is very similar to what is happening to me. I’m going to see another doctor on Monday, we’ll see what comes out of that.

I haven’t talked to a priest yet. I tried to go to Easter Mass, but I got scared and run away (!), can you believe that? I felt really stupid afterwards, but I couldn’t stay, I had to go away as soon as I could. So, yes, I think it must be the devil trying to get me away from God, or at least, something inside me.

I’m praying everyday anyway, and reading the Bible whenever I can. I believe this is helping me.
 
I’ve read that these things could be caused by the devil…

one time, I felt really sick before Mass… and I considered not going, but went anyways. Right when I came to the church, all the pain stopped.
 
I don’t know what could be wrong with you but I suspect that your problem may be psychological. I can’t diagnose you but perhaps you have a form of a situational anxiety disorder or something?
 
Ok, it’s been almost a year since my last update, and you all have probably forgotten me, but I wanted to let you know what has happened since.

Since I posted here I’ve seen a lot of doctors, and one of them diagnosed that my thyroid gland was not working well. I started a treatment for that, and also for anxiety (as a symptom) with a Psycologist and a Psychiatrist. I got lots of tests done and apparently I’m fine now, after 9 months or so.

I’m still afraid to go to Mass though. 😊 I went to church on Saturday with my fiancé, but not on Mass hours. We entered the church and looked at all of the saint’s statues and I couldn’t stand being there. I wanted to get out. And for some reason I almost started crying. I didn’t tell him anything, because I had insisted so much that we go to that particular church and not other one. I felt scared and stupid and confused. But I’ll keep trying.

Thanks everyone for reading this, for the comments and the prayers. I keep you all in my thoughts.
 
It sounds like you are making good progress.

How about trying this?

Go by yourself to a morning Mass. Get there just as the Mass starts and stand in the very back of the Church. See if you can just stand there and watch the Mass. If you need to run out, do so. Then try again the next day or, if you can’t, then at least the next week. See how long you can stay and try to stay a moment longer each time.

I don’t know why you’re going through this. But I do know that God is watching and that He has a plan for you, and that He loves you.

Praying for you!

Sincerely,

Adv1sor
 
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