whats wrong with me??

[triumphguy]

MyM…

There;s things you have to do as a young person:

• go to school, get decent grades, obey your parents. These will also help with your vocation.
• there’s things you can do as a young person to actively promote your vocation: prayers, spiritual direction, frequent reception of the sacraments, reading up on the saints/orders that you find attractivve
• there’s things you are going to go through as a young person just because your body and mind is still growing and becoming adult: angst, anxiety, anger, doubt, sexual attraction confusion (maybe), aggression, temptation, desire to Paartay, desire to fit in with everyone else, desire to drive too fast, play music too loud and just upset old fogies. BTW the human brain doesn’t stop developing 'til the twenties. You need to struggle through this as you become the person you choose to be. You will fall, fail, sin, sin again, do dumb and stupid things - don’t panic - it’s normal…

As St. Paul says, Keep your eye on the prize.

 

[Seira]

Do you find girls to be sexually attractive? If so, you aren’t gay. Simple as that.

Unless you’re bi. However, you’d have to find guys to be sexually atractive as well. Which you didn’t say that… so you most likely are not. I think you’re just a confused teen having one of those days when you aren’t sure of anything in life. It happens, but I do think it would be wise to either discuss matters w/ a spiritual director or a priest.

 

[Contra_Mundum_1]

Buddy - It’s called the teenage wasteland.

It’s normal, and uncomfortable as all get out. It’s part of the human condition.

Yup exactly. I promise, it will pass and one day you will feel more comfortable in your skin.

I don’t understand why you think it is a problem that you are attracted to girls but don’t want marriage. That is only logical if you have a vocation to the priesthood, right?

There’s nothing wrong with you.

 

[mymamamary]

MyM…

There;s things you have to do as a young person:

• go to school, get decent grades, obey your parents. These will also help with your vocation.
• there’s things you can do as a young person to actively promote your vocation: prayers, spiritual direction, frequent reception of the sacraments, reading up on the saints/orders that you find attractivve
• there’s things you are going to go through as a young person just because your body and mind is still growing and becoming adult: angst, anxiety, anger, doubt, sexual attraction confusion (maybe), aggression, temptation, desire to Paartay, desire to fit in with everyone else, desire to drive too fast, play music too loud and just upset old fogies. BTW the human brain doesn’t stop developing 'til the twenties. You need to struggle through this as you become the person you choose to be. You will fall, fail, sin, sin again, do dumb and stupid things - don’t panic - it’s normal…

As St. Paul says, Keep your eye on the prize.

I love to go to confession weekly, at the minimum, Holy EUCHARIST again, once a week at the minimum, at MASS, I love spiritual reading, in fact I’m reading Peter Kreefts Catholic Christianity book, which is a thinner version of the Catechism (albeit its still pretty thick), I love to read about my heroes the saints, and I Find St. Francis and St. Benedict and their respective orders pretty cool, etc., I altar Serve, I lector, although I do want to pray more. I have my prayers that i say at night, but I want more. Also, I see my classmates and that party lifestyle. It doesnt appeal to me. At all. I got nothing against Alcohol, its fine to have a couple of beers when you are OVER the age and not a full case. And that sex before marriage, ewh, std central. To be honest, I enjoy being a virgin, alot. Although I do get times like this…

 

[Marie5890]

MyM,

I hear what you are saying and can understand your wanting to sort things out, especially in terms of your own feelings towards people, girls, the priesthood etc.

First. Being gay is not a sin. As a priest, if that is where God leads you, you will being dealing with all kinds of people, including gay people. Bringing the attitude of “its disgusting” will not help you in being a good priest, full of love, towards all people. So try to separate the idea that being gay is a disordered affection and the acts.

I know people who happen to be gay. I have family members who happen to be gay. They are great people and I love them dearly, regardless of who they find themselves attracted to.

2nd) Being careful in trying to hash out these big issues here on the internet. Glad to hear you will be picking up all of this with a spiritual director in the fall. These kinds serious issues need to be hashed out with good spiritual direction and not will well intended people on the internet

1. I hear your profound excited towards the priesthoood!! Thats GREAT!!!..However, be careful that you arent romantisizing the priesthood and building up a fantasy around it either. A good spiritual director will help makes sure you are seeing clearly what is going on with that too…

God Bless…

 

[paperwight66]

Excellent post, Marie5890.

Thank you for putting things so clearly and yet so kindly.

 

[triumphguy]

I love to go to confession weekly, at the minimum, Holy EUCHARIST again, once a week at the minimum, at MASS, I love spiritual reading, in fact I’m reading Peter Kreefts Catholic Christianity book, which is a thinner version of the Catechism (albeit its still pretty thick), I love to read about my heroes the saints, and I Find St. Francis and St. Benedict and their respective orders pretty cool, etc., I altar Serve, I lector, although I do want to pray more. I have my prayers that i say at night, but I want more. Also, I see my classmates and that party lifestyle. It doesnt appeal to me. At all. I got nothing against Alcohol, its fine to have a couple of beers when you are OVER the age and not a full case. And that sex before marriage, ewh, std central. To be honest, I enjoy being a virgin, alot. Although I do get times like this…

Just remember you are going to go through a lot of ups and downs in your journey through life.

The “ups” when everything is smooth and you feel joy, don’t mean you have “made it” and the “downs” don;t mean you are failing either.