When God calls you to a life of seemingly unending pain

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How do you cope? (No medical advice please!)

I just got word from my doctor that I’m at the end of my rope medication-wise for my severe and disabling Fibromyalgia pain. And I’m still disabled cause of the pain. I’m not in a place where I can pray a bunch. I just try to do what little I can around the house and that’s about killing me. I can’t work or even volunteer. I had to become sterile due the severe unrelenting Endometrioses pain so I can’t have children and this is so very sad and painful for me. And it’s always on my mind in the midst of this.

I’m reading a lot. Mostly Christian fiction. I can do that when the pain is less. They are light and easy to read with good morals mixed in. I try to read a little passage from scripture each day and do a daily offering. That with a few spontaneous prayers throughout the day is the extent of my spiritual life. Sunday mass of course when the pain and fatigue allow which, thankfully, is most Sundays.

My spiritual life is so dry and empty right now. I feel God’s judgement rather than His love, which is common I’m sure for those with chronic illness. I’m just exhausted and at the end of my rope. I’m suffering severely in mind body and soul. I feel like I’m nailed to the cross with Jesus. One severe and chronic illness was traded for another. God is unrelenting with this severe pain and suffering. Will it never end? I can’t do this much longer, but I have no choice. Please, please pray for me. Thank you and God bless you and your loved ones! :hug3:
 
Convert_in_99 said:
How do you cope? (No medical advice please!)

I just got word from my doctor that I’m at the end of my rope medication-wise for my severe and disabling Fibromyalgia pain. And I’m still disabled cause of the pain. I’m not in a place where I can pray a bunch. I just try to do what little I can around the house and that’s about killing me. I can’t work or even volunteer. I had to become sterile due the severe unrelenting Endometrioses pain so I can’t have children and this is so very sad and painful for me. And it’s always on my mind in the midst of this.

I’m reading a lot. Mostly Christian fiction. I can do that when the pain is less. They are light and easy to read with good morals mixed in. My spiritual life is so dry and empty right now. I feel God’s judgement rather than His love, which is common I’m sure for those with chronic illness. I’m just exhausted and at the end of my rope. I’m suffering severely in mind body and soul. I feel like I’m nailed to the cross with Jesus. One severe and chronic illness was traded for another. God is unrelenting with this severe pain and suffering. Will it never end? I can’t do this much longer, but I have no choice. Please, please pray for me. Thank you and God bless you and your loved ones! :hug3:
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I am continuing to pray for you. It seems like you are undergoing Purgatory on earth. :console:
 
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I am continuing to pray for you. It seems like you are undergoing Purgatory on earth. :console:
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Thank you so much! :hug1:

Just typing this post has made my arms hurt so badly. I hope against all hope that this pain helps souls. It’s not seeming to aid those I love and care for most, which is heartbreaking. God is not even allowing that joy to me right now. I hope at least someone is benefited from it.
 
Convert_in_99 said:
Thank you so much! :hug1:

Just typing this post has made my arms hurt so badly. I hope against all hope that this pain helps souls. It’s not seeming to aid those I love and care for most, which is heartbreaking. God is not even allowing that joy to me right now. I hope at least someone is benefited from it.
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I think it does help souls.

Stay hopeful. Praying for the best of God for you.
 
May you be filled with loving kindness. May you be well. May you be peaceful and at ease. May you be happy. May you be free from suffering and the causes of suffering. Blessings to you and yours.
 
Did the stress of your surgery throw you into a fibro crisis?

My mother has fibro, as do several other female family members. I have some awareness of how this chronic illness is, by watching their struggle.

I am so sorry for your pain. I cannot imagine what you must be going through.

I think what you wrote about being nailed to the cross with Jesus is just heart-wrenchingly beautiful.

I will add you to my prayer list of CAF members that I mention by screenname in my daily prayers. I have nothing else to give to you but my prayers. The reality is that you have given me a hundred times more by the witness of your post today.

God bless you. I sincerely hope that your fibro pain will ease up soon, Convert.
 
Convert_in_99 said:
How do you cope? (No medical advice please!)

I just got word from my doctor that I’m at the end of my rope medication-wise for my severe and disabling Fibromyalgia pain. And I’m still disabled cause of the pain. I’m not in a place where I can pray a bunch. I just try to do what little I can around the house and that’s about killing me. I can’t work or even volunteer. I had to become sterile due the severe unrelenting Endometrioses pain so I can’t have children and this is so very sad and painful for me. And it’s always on my mind in the midst of this.

I’m reading a lot. Mostly Christian fiction. I can do that when the pain is less. They are light and easy to read with good morals mixed in. I try to read a little passage from scripture each day and do a daily offering. That with a few spontaneous prayers throughout the day is the extent of my spiritual life. Sunday mass of course when the pain and fatigue allow which, thankfully, is most Sundays.

My spiritual life is so dry and empty right now. I feel God’s judgement rather than His love, which is common I’m sure for those with chronic illness. I’m just exhausted and at the end of my rope. I’m suffering severely in mind body and soul. I feel like I’m nailed to the cross with Jesus. One severe and chronic illness was traded for another. God is unrelenting with this severe pain and suffering. Will it never end? I can’t do this much longer, but I have no choice. Please, please pray for me. Thank you and God bless you and your loved ones! :hug3:
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At first, I could not really understand the top part of this post in the Prayer Intentions Forum. forums.catholic-questions.org/showpost.php?p=13695636&postcount=1

As I read about your extent of spiritual life, I recognized the magnitude of your gift to God for others. I realized that like Mother Angelica, you are finding another thought about God like being nailed to the cross with Jesus. Feeling so close to Jesus. In this case, it seems to me, that feeling numb is not the sign of a dry spell. It is the sign of being in union with Jesus, nailed with Him. If I may suggest the following. Feeling like the end of the rope is most likely how Jesus felt hanging bloody on His chosen cross. Hang on with Jesus.
 
Dear Convert, I am so sorry for your pain. I am sure that most of us cannot imagine what you are going through. It occurred to me that possibly God is asking you to be a “victim soul,” that is someone who suffers extraordinary for others. Many great saints were victim souls. You can google this term in case I am not explaining correctly. This is truly a saintly calling above what is asked of most. You said that you are offering up your suffering, think of how many souls you have already freed from purgatory or how many graces you have called down upon someone who has been tempted to commit a great sin! These souls will thank you someday. I hope that the knowledge that your suffering is not in vain will be a comfort to you.
 
I think you could teach me lessons on coping, so I won’t try to act like I know more than you on that topic. 🙂 Instead, I will pray that you and your doctors find the root cause of your fibromyalgia- perhaps by p(name removed by moderator)ointing any allergy you have that is setting your inflammatory factors off. Perhaps if the root cause is found, you will finally find relief. So I will pray for that for you. God bless you.
 
Please know that you are not alone. I hope you find consolation in the testimony of a woman named Samia Zumout. In the interview, Samia discusses how she was suddenly diagnosed with Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis and 5 herniated discs. She was given 6 months to live. Her suffering was so great that she went before the Blessed Sacrament and told Jesus that if her mission was over she was ready to “go”. Jesus spoke in her heart and said that He would heal her, but that He was using her suffering. In her spirit He showed her a large crowd of people and made her to understand that these people were going to die, but that they were not ready. He asked if she would be willing to suffer for them.

Please don’t despair. Your suffering has great redemptive value and remember that the Lord is *always *with you. He is loving you through those He has entrusted to take care of you.

I’ll keep you in my prayers ❤️

God bless
 
So, no more meds for you?

I have a disabling case of Fibromyalgia and take prescription pain killers. At home, though, I really try to focus on the blessings of my life and think about what I can do to help others within my time constraints.

I can’t read much unless I have audio because my concentration and memory skills are inhibited by the Fibro as well. I spend a lot of time on my computer on Facebook with others who have this disease as well as on the Catholic Forums. It’s a different focus than thinking about the pain that I’m in.

I also have a gentle stretch video to help stretch my muscles. Our local pool gives discounts to some people who need to use it for gentle exercise.

I’m sorry this has happened to you…I really understand and pray that God will help you cope and/or heal you from this disease.

God’s blessings to you!

Rita
 
Convert_in_99 said:
How do you cope? (No medical advice please!)

I just got word from my doctor that I’m at the end of my rope medication-wise for my severe and disabling Fibromyalgia pain. And I’m still disabled cause of the pain. I’m not in a place where I can pray a bunch. I just try to do what little I can around the house and that’s about killing me. I can’t work or even volunteer. I had to become sterile due the severe unrelenting Endometrioses pain so I can’t have children and this is so very sad and painful for me. And it’s always on my mind in the midst of this.

I’m reading a lot. Mostly Christian fiction. I can do that when the pain is less. They are light and easy to read with good morals mixed in. I try to read a little passage from scripture each day and do a daily offering. That with a few spontaneous prayers throughout the day is the extent of my spiritual life. Sunday mass of course when the pain and fatigue allow which, thankfully, is most Sundays.

My spiritual life is so dry and empty right now. I feel God’s judgement rather than His love, which is common I’m sure for those with chronic illness. I’m just exhausted and at the end of my rope. I’m suffering severely in mind body and soul. I feel like I’m nailed to the cross with Jesus. One severe and chronic illness was traded for another. God is unrelenting with this severe pain and suffering. Will it never end? I can’t do this much longer, but I have no choice. Please, please pray for me. Thank you and God bless you and your loved ones! :hug3:
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I have so much compassion for you. I pray your pain eases!
 
Convert_in_99 said:
How do you cope? (No medical advice please!)

I just got word from my doctor that I’m at the end of my rope medication-wise for my severe and disabling Fibromyalgia pain. And I’m still disabled cause of the pain. I’m not in a place where I can pray a bunch. I just try to do what little I can around the house and that’s about killing me. I can’t work or even volunteer. I had to become sterile due the severe unrelenting Endometrioses pain so I can’t have children and this is so very sad and painful for me. And it’s always on my mind in the midst of this.

I’m reading a lot. Mostly Christian fiction. I can do that when the pain is less. They are light and easy to read with good morals mixed in. I try to read a little passage from scripture each day and do a daily offering. That with a few spontaneous prayers throughout the day is the extent of my spiritual life. Sunday mass of course when the pain and fatigue allow which, thankfully, is most Sundays.

My spiritual life is so dry and empty right now. I feel God’s judgement rather than His love, which is common I’m sure for those with chronic illness. I’m just exhausted and at the end of my rope. I’m suffering severely in mind body and soul. I feel like I’m nailed to the cross with Jesus. One severe and chronic illness was traded for another. God is unrelenting with this severe pain and suffering. Will it never end? I can’t do this much longer, but I have no choice. Please, please pray for me. Thank you and God bless you and your loved ones! :hug3:
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Hi my dear,

I’m so sorry that your Fibro. is really bothering you. 😦

I believe that you are doing the right thing by “offering it up,” though.

As far as your prayers go, I would just say to do your best, hon. Jesus knows what you’re going through. I do as you do, and just unite myself with Him on the cross. Sometimes, that’s all that I can do at the time.

That’s what I do with my Fibro. pain, too–offer it up for others.

I’m just putting this thought out there, but is it possible that now that you have had the surgery and the endo. pain is better, that you are noticing just how painful the Fibro. is for you, or like someone else said, your Fibro. could be in a flare, too?

For me, I have many health issues that have come about due to family history as I’ve gotten older, meaning that many family members had the same illnesses, and now I have them, too.

My Fibro. is a result of an accident that happened to me years ago.

It seems like I get through dealing with one health issue, when another one comes along.

I get frustrated for sure, but I just try and take everything one day at a time. It’s less overwhelming when I can focus on it all, a bit at a time.

I try to distract myself too, as much as I can. That’s what I was told to do, too–to try and do what I enjoy, so that I don’t focus on my pain as much. So, I like to read and watch TV, and go out when I can.

I love interacting with my kitty, too. She brings me lots of joy and entertainment. She loves to play, and I play with her, too.

You can offer up your trials on Earth towards your own Purgatory, too.

When you are feeling bad like this, just know that you are not alone, and that there are others here on CAF like you, who are also dealing with chronic pain and chronic health issues, too. :hug1: :kiss4you:

Love and Prayers to you,
oldgraymare2 ❤️
 
Sorry to hear you are still suffering - both physically and spiritually. It may be trite to tell you of the value of suffering on the road to sainthood, but it is perhaps all that can be said at this time.

“If God sends you many sufferings, it is a sign that He has great plans for you and certainly wants to make you a saint.” St. Ignatius Loyola
 
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Sorry to hear you are still suffering - both physically and spiritually. It may be trite to tell you of the value of suffering on the road to sainthood, but it is perhaps all that can be said at this time.

“If God sends you many sufferings, it is a sign that He has great plans for you and certainly wants to make you a saint.” St. Ignatius Loyola
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Somebody told me that during a difficult part of my life.

I wanted to tell that somebody that I wished God did not have such a high opinion of me. Of course in retrospect I now know that those difficult times yielded a lot of fruit but it was hard seeing that in the midst of all that pain.
 
I am so sorry for your pain.

I HIGHLY recommend watching/listening to this very old but extremely comforting and insightful video by the Ven. Fulton Sheen on suffering:

youtube.com/watch?v=aCOOWHRCR0Q

It’s absolutely wonderful, and may bring you some focus and respite.

Blessings to you…
 
I am in a similar situation but I have never seen it as coming from God etc It is for me to bear it as best I can and still do as much as I can for Him and others. Pain is pain and not of God to me. He gives me the strength . I am largely ignored by the drs as they do not believe here in my illness; I have M.;E which you call CFIDS. I now ask the drs for the pain meds I need and regulate that myself; my condition is worse as I was misdiagnosed and inappropriately medicated and scorned for 30 years. So I simply manage all this now and am thankful for life and my bed and handwork. I am careful as we all need to be to keep mobile as pain increases when we stay abed too much, tempting as that may be. Not from God… He is with me always to bear it. Not for anyone or anything just bear it for Him.
 
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