that’s a very ugly understanding of Catholicism. It exudes disdain. God is not mad at you, friend. Imperfect contrition is still contrition. Even fear of hell implies the acknowledgement of the evil one has done which further implies a contrite heart. That God responds to the contrite heart is the very beautiful lure of Christianity: God’s mercy and forgiveness. Yet you’re impugning it as an ugly thing, it almost looks like jealousy. God wants to forgive you too.
You completely misread my intentions.
Contrary to the claims by Fulton Sheen that people do not dislike the Catholic church, but merely misunderstand it I understand it all too well. In fact, I’ve found in my academic career the more I come to learn about it the more fell I find its influence across time to have been.
I don’t hate your God any more than I hate Allah, Shiva, Kanton, Horus or Mithra; that is I have no emotional stance regarding what I consider to be fictional characters. What I do however have an emotional response to, one which I do my utmost to holdback is a dislike of what some religious groups have done and continue to do. By all means I consider groups like the Quakers to be delusional eccentrics, but their theology aside in practice they have been mostly harmless and have improved our societies in many ways. Other sects such as Islam have had an almost entirely negative impact, in fact I cannot think of a single positive innovation originating within their cultural sphere that could not have been exported from the prior regimes (arabic numerals, Byzantine preserved classical texts etc)
I understand you cannot see it from my perspective, but I can see how it would be impossible for you to see your God as anything but all loving and all good. I consider this literary personality to be neither, and consider many of the actions of his devotees to be anything but those two claimed aspects. Certainly, I don’t doubt the Church has brought calm of mind and food to the bellys of many destitute individuals, but it has also inflicted untold carnage, death, destruction and mayhem elsewhere which I personally think outweighs the good.
Why do I linger here then? I am an academic, and I make money by writing my thoughts and reports on what Traditionalist Catholic schismatic movements (SSPX, Sede’s etc) get up to. By virtue of my profession I am always open to be proven wrong and I am here constantly imbibing new information reshaping how I perceive aspects of the faith. For instance in Private messages I’ve been engaged in a rather long debate pertaining to the Church “saving” the classical heritage of the west. Not a position I hold, but one I am open to evidence regarding.
Thus far, particularly in regards to the more extreme posters on this forum such as ChunkMonk this perspective has not improved.