IanS:
Actually, what you gave here is a bit of a witness. Itâs just explaining your spiritual journey (good or bad). You donât need to beat yourself up to give one.
In a sense, maybe

But that is not how I felt about it. To explain it a little longer, I was born and raised in Hungary, where the communists created this custom of âpublic self-criticismâ (in the fifties it was mandatory to arrive about an hour early to your workplace and participate!), and this witnessing was very much like it. Not just a simple storytelling like these fre sentences.
IanS:
In fact, saying your an atheist is the worst thing you can say about yourself.
Not in my eyes! Being an atheist means that I take control of and assume responsibility for my life and actions. There is no get-out-of-jail card I can rely upon. If I make a mistake it will be there forever. It is not a depressing feeling at all, rather quite liberating. (I do not wish to offend, but it is just like growing up and losing the father-figure.)
IanS:
Your declaring that you are just a living piece of meat, like an animal. Even I think more of you that that, and I donât even know you.
That is not what I meant. We are all living piece of meats, nerves, etc. But our brain is complicated enough to create a mind, which is capable of reasoning, conceptualizing, not just reacting. Did you know that genetically speaking we share 99% of our genes with the chimpanzees? And if you would ever observe the bonobos (another tribe of primates) you would see that their society is beautiful, they do not let their frustration result in physical fights - in other words they really âmake love, not warâ (yes, they engage in indiscriminate sex whenever they feel frustrated). Highly civilized in my eyes. War and killing are the ultimate obscenities as far as I am concerned.
IanS:
Iâm sorry about what happened with your mother. Are you sure she was actually excommunicated from the Church? Not to doubt you, but thatâs a pretty big deal and a formal process usually imposed by the Bishop for someone who seriously threatens the Church. Itâs also pretty rare. Iâm just asking, because I know a lot of non-catholics like to throw that term around.
It was over 60 years ago and in Hungary. I have no documents about it. All our papers were lost in the war. If I know incorrectly, I am sorry. Besides, it is irrelevant now.
IanS:
The reason your parents asked you to pray for your brother is because they were just following the teaching of Jesus, âlove your enemiesâ. Itâs hard to stay mad a someone you honestly pray for.
I know that, but as an 8 years olf kid, I could NOT honestly pray for him. I went through the motions, but that was all, and I felt bad about it. Of course our little âfightsâ were never serious, and usually did not last longer than a few hours.
IanS:
Iâve known many people who call themselves atheist and each of them has their own belief about how the universe came into existence, Including one I used to have. Iâm curious, whatâs yours?
It is debatable that the words âcame into existenceâ are applicable here.
There are questions which cannot be answered, because they are incorrect questions. âWhat was before the Big Bang?â is one of them. âWhat is to the north from the North Pole?â is another. âIs light a wave or a particle?â is yet another. âWhen have you stopped beating your wife?â is a famous incorrect question. Not all questions are legitimate, even if they are syntactically well-formed.
The word âUniverseâ means everything that exists. Causality cannot be applied to this concept. âTimeâ has no meaning outside it. As far as I am concerned, the Universe exists, it needs no âcauseâ, no âexplanationâ.
You probably believe that God created the Universe (an unknowable being using unimaginable means made it somehow happen), but when asked how did God come into existence, you probably answer: âGod always existed, God requires no explanationâ.
So, our two positions are almost exactly alike, except that you postulated an unknowable, and that is strictly forbidden by Occamâs razor. Positing God explains nothing, rather it states that the question at hand cannot ever be answered in a natural way. (And to add insult to injury, this actually would require omniscience!

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