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Daniel_Marsh
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at this time I am a cranky old man
so don’t take my complaining too seriously but look for the wisdom
so don’t take my complaining too seriously but look for the wisdom
God bless you and Welcome, ctybring !!!I am in the process of converting, i am currently attending a belife cource at my local Church
I know exactly how you feel. I’ve been struggling with an addiction of a different nature (I’d rather not go into details), for years and only just recently have managed to actually put a stop to it. The best thing to do is look into the reasons for quitting and remind yourself of them whenever you feel the addiction flaring up. If I were you, I would throw out anything that might tempt you to smoke and pray often for strength. Put icons and holy pictures wherever you are most often tempted and carry a rosary or someother holy object around with you. If you feel the need to buy some or smoke, pull it out and start praying.I haven’t even started my spiritual journey yet, don’t even now the road I have to go down…lol. I’, struggling with somethings, it’s a battle and has been since I was 12. It’s with drugs, I stopped all the bad drugs like E and coke and all that cause I learned that it’s not worth it, but I still smoke pot quite often. I ask Jesus for help with my struggle but there are times when I just don’t want to help myself. Being in a state of perpetual numbness kind of works for me. It’s hard to explain. When I smoke up, I feel good, but I always end up talking to God, and when I do that when I am high, I feel guilty, like its a blasphemous thing to do. I know it sucks. I’ve tried group therapy, cutting back, quitting cold turkey, nothing seems to work because I don’t want it to. That’s why there is no spiritual journey yet, but when I get to the point where I can see my path sober, I’ll post again.
I would most definitely say you are .I can really relate to this. I had a very serious illness about a year and a half ago and it definitely changed my life. I’ve always believed in God, but was lukewarm about it–I’d go to Mass more often than not, but would skip when I felt like it. I used ABC with my husband and didn’t think much about it. How all that’s changed!! I’m now praying more, reading everything I can, going to Mass as often as possible; with work that means one, maybe two Masses during the week. I’ve gone to confession three times in last year (all since August), which is more than quite possibly the entire rest of my life. I’m certainly not going to say I’m a great person, all’s right, because I can improve, but I’m very happy to be setting out on this journey and I think I’m heading in the right direction.
Your friend doesn’t want to die…just wants the pain to stop. Whether its emotional physical or spiritual. Pray unceasingly for your friend, offer masses . Pray the Lord frees your friend from the bondage that keeps him prisoner. I will pray for him too.I am really struggling as someone very close to me is sick and suicidal. he tried to suicide this morning. I am persevering , but i would ask prayers for him. He is a good catholic with bipolar disorder amongst other things ( manic depressive etc).
Please pray for him.
It was actually directed at your seemingly sympathy for Carlos Casteñeda-like, pseudo-spiritual, drug-induced inebriation…I do not see this as the time to scold him for not becoming perfected in all areas of sin.

Wow,Hum???
I think mine is going backward at the speed of light. Doesn’t seem to matter what I do, no forward steps. Most resently I was told I was in a dept crisis of faith with little hope of recovering anytime soon. So for me it is a journey of darkness.
scared
I heard you about Catch-22 and every option being wrong. Here’s to hoping the backward movement gets all stored up and releases in your favor.In my case and circumstances other things must be worked out first, but in order to work them out I would need some sort of faith, so I am caught in one of those preverbial catch 22 positions. Either way I move, something bad happens. In the end months and possibly years from now I can only think something good will come of it, but for now I go backward.
scared
Shoshana,Am I making any sense? This too happens within the spiritual life…

Shoshana:
Sorry the birth of my children were too quick for the doc. So slipping and going back is not something that I am acquantied with.
scared.