Yes, that was almost my point.
My point is that no matter what my current temporal situation vis-à-vis my “state of grace,” there should be only one different in how I behave based on whether I’ve mortally sinned – and that is I should be aware of when the next confession is available and have a plan to get there.
Other than that, if I do things that are helpful or harmful to others, that is still good or bad, respectively. It’s not like I’m in some state of limbo where everything I do doesn’t matter to God or to anyone else.
If all I’m doing is chasing a point system we have supposed God goes by in making His “final determinations” which we claim to have no foreknowledge of and therefore that says something about the confidence we place in our own models and ability to know how we are doing when measured against them. And we have great fear and consternation about how we measure up to these imaginary forumulae. And we say God gave us the power to bind and loose but with all that binding and loosing the Church has not rung in on any souls other than ordained saints and Mary and a couple others on whether they even made it to heaven.
In industry we call this the “throw it over the wall” mentality. We do all this stuff in the hope it is good for our immortal soul, with the Church right there with us. Until we die in which case the Church says “sorry but you’re on your own now. But we’ll pray for you.” So what are our chances given we’ve lived a chaste life? Some saints have written about how few of us are going to make it. Do we really go to Church knowing that the vast majority of us are likely to burn in hell?
We believe the most important accomplishment in life is one that we will never have any way to know how that decision will go in our particular case, so we chase whatever we think is speaking for God – including the idea that Good Works done in a “state of sin” which BTW I think mystically that implies a whole lot more than the time between when we actually discover a sin and the time it is formally dealt with in the confessional. But we know that really isn’t what matters to God because we have all sorts of explanations like what if you don’t get to confession but planned to, and then died? So we say “yes don’t worry about THAT particular thing because there is this escape clause in God’s paperwork.” But the stuff that doesn’t fit the formula, like whether you have avoided mortal sin there is still no way to know whether God sees you as a saint or like He saw those authorities at the time who followed all the rules as far as anybody knows, whitewashed tombs “which appear beautiful on the outside, but inside are full of dead men’s bones and every kind of filth.” There just isn’t any way to know.
The result? Learn to live for Jesus, listen to Him, and enter the kingdom that is available to us while we are still alive – besides that clearly takes up our purgatory time and this is documented by the doctors of the Church and is called the “Dark Night of the Soul” which is a beautiful thing to undergo except to the people watching it and trying to explain it like a bunch of behaviorists explaining how mice run through a maze. What they see as confusion and anguish is really – to use Jesus and Paul’s metaphor – the labor pains for a new creature. When people need real spiritual food and medicine, we give pablum and a cliche formula that says they should pray more and go to confession more, and accept their “dryness” because saints have it too – like the universal Windex of the soul. We associate “dark night” with depression and feelings of detachment, but it isn’t that at all except to the most fearful.
Ultimately, when theology gets to the point where I am told that regardless of ANY circumstance, if I have a chance to do good and it doesn’t matter to God whether I do it or not, then that theology needs some straightening out IMO.
Because I don’t worship a God who puts people in time-out and cancels their good works and probably doesn’t care whether I go to hell. That’s the kind of God that is failing in the school systems, because they developed their policies based on behavior of lab rats, pigeons, and monkeys – which bear close resemblance to the reward/response behavior of autistic and other low performing children, but fail miserably when applied to accelerated students who actually want to learn.
Either that or he’s not really the Behavior Modification King, who frightens entire civilizations into submissive behavior, with the threat that during this life if they do not only do the right things but have the exact right thoughts and beliefs while doing them, nothing else in their lives will matter because they are but a maggot which will be burned to a crisp and fry for all eternity.