Music tends to invoke an emotional response, our senses are rather in tune, excuse the pun, to what ever is being played, the entire range of emotions can be brought out through it, so it’s not so much a tool we should use for making such an important decision.
I felt called to be a priest as a child, it was during my early teenage years, and only for a short time, well, so I thought. It wasn’t until later in life, I realized, it still is there and in my mind, I’ve always wanted to settle down and raise a family, that the two could not happen simotaneously.
Now, looking at the criteria to actually become a priest, I would not be accepted. I’m not conservative enough, they want you to be in this middle area that with my personality type, simply would not fit in. I’m one that goes to extremes, am totally in with zealousy, or am totally out, not looking back. It seems he has revealed my calling, yet not how I originally perceived it to be in the first place, and I am going to keep part of that to myself, for I have good reason to, yet it is still serving the church, and in other areas, I keep getting people coming to me that rarely, if ever have any kind of spiritual guidance or fellowship, and the dialog always comes to down to me talking to them about God, and I keep it confined to the terms they can understand and relate to, planting seeds and showing through example and how I carry myself with them, this is what we Christians are really about and what we really are like,. With the latter, too often their perception of us is negative entirely because they were exposed to the wrong people, people that only give us a bad name and image because they are not part of the body at all, their faith is fake and their attitudes, motivations and mannerisms are very much worldly, regardless of what grandiose position they hold in their churches and community.
We don’t need a church filled with Parishioners of priests and nuns, we all as laymen have our vital rolls we play within it, and being just an average slob, showing Christs love, and leading others to him can be done, collar, or no collar, this is something we all can and should actively participate in. I also strongly feel, God want’s stronger parishioners, especially in today’s times, he wants real men and women, as he intended from the beginning, not these watered down, modern versions which so predominantly has become the norm these days. He want’s us to stand up for what is right in his eyes, even if and when it’s in direct opposition to the secular world, he wants us to be part of his nature, which is not of this world and live our lives in that manner, to show through example, we do NOT need what’s being force fed to the current generations, that our lives are much more fulfilling taking up that cross, and just as Christ is the light in the darkness of our inner world, we are to be light in the darkness of the world of mankind as well.
