It has gotten to the point that I altogether avoid serious prayer and even am annoyed by prayer before meals or bedtime prayers with my kids.
Lately, during Mass, I find that even the thought of participating brings almost a sickening feeling. I no longer sing, prayer or try to reflect during appropriate times. I fear what is going on here. I go to Confession regularly but nothing comes out it. Prayer, meditation and even spiritual reading are all avoided. I’ve struggled with lukewarmness before, but this is something different. I fear I am struggling with something much greater.
