So, do I get it right, that Judas had a chance to be saved until he took Communion, but he did not change his mind, so he took Communion unworthily and “to his own damnation”?
No one can know for sure if one is “damned”. But, I do think that sometimes Judas gets a bad rap. Consider this possibility. Judas took a risk, an enormous risk and it did not go well as we all know. But it could be that Judas was demonstrating faith, great faith in the Lord. I believes he expected Jesus to call on a legion of angels to avoid what ultimately happened. It might be said, that Judas was trying to force Jesus’ hand by selling him out for 30 pieces of silver. Was he wrong? Of course. But, I think Judas loved Jesus. He might have been a bit frustrated because Jesus, as messiah, was something different than what Judas thought he should be.
When Judas realized the outcome, he was devastated and distraught. This is not the reaction one would expect from someone who wanted Jesus to be stopped. Filled with despair, he took his own life.
In modern times, the Church teaches that those who commit suicide are victims of their own psychological and emotional distress. These factors mitigate the sin. Further, Judas may have felt in his own way that what he was doing was actually good. After all, why not let the glory of our Lord be shown. And, Judas was right in the middle of making it happen. He never dreamed that God would ever let Jesus be crucified! Lack of knowledge again mitigates the sin and may even eliminate it all together.
Jesus said from the cross, “Father forgive them for they know not what they do”. Is our Lord including Judas? In this year of mercy, we might do well to pray for the salvation of all souls, including Judas. I can say with some certainty that I too have grossly offended our Lord. If Judas can obtain mercy, then maybe somehow, I can too. If I ever get to heaven, I really hope to see Judas there. It will make my day!