…CONTINUED (From Above)
How does one stay true? I just take the suffering and not complain? I was not made perfect, that’s why I’m complaining. I can’t handle suffering. I’m just terrible at it and throwing more at me ain’t gonna make me better at it.
I have often heard that every specific instance, if not every
moment, of suffering in itself can be a prayer offered up for the souls in Purgatory, or perhaps even as prayers of love aimed toward God Himself. Thus even if it is suffering not directly from God (see the difference a few paragraphs above) He can allow you to transform it into prayer and make it in
some way a positive thing by doing so…and since it is indeed a special sort of prayer, only those who suffer can offer it up. The less you feel able to handle it, the more effective the prayers are, because that feeling is in itself a type of suffering. It is not that God is directly inflicting all this suffering, but He has given us this silver lining.
If we were perfect, we would have a GREAT conscience, and not sin of pride and presume of our perfection - because if we were perfect, we’d know that we’re prefect only because of God - preventing any semblance of pride.
As I suspicion, perhaps that’s not what
God calls perfect at all, at least not if it were true from the very moment of our creation. It would, after all, require a complete pre-determined manipulation of our minds to make them tend toward a certain outcome, and it would interfere with our having chosen God out of total free will, or at least a free will that wasn’t already manipulated
in His favor.
If God made us perfect, this goal would have been done in the beginning
.
Not actually. It is simply logically impossible–as in, an impossible concept, such as 2 +2 being 7–for a perfect end-of-a-
process to be the same thing as a perfect
foregone conclusion. If God wanted us to be perfect as the result of a process, by definition His goal would
not be done in the beginning if He had made us perfect instantly…in fact, in that case, His goal would
never have been done at
all. Keep in mind, if that was His goal, it is very specific and depends on the whole experience and process. Cut the
process out and the “result” (without a process it cannot truly be called a result) directly
undermines God’s goal, which is why a “human who could never possibly have sinned” may quite simply not be a “perfect human” at
all as God had planned.
If they were created perfect in the first place, phoniness would not be done.
It still undermines the goal of the
project, however. You would not enact a project that had a foregone conclusion, as it would not then
be a legitimate project. If you wanted to enact such a thing, as I theorize God wanted, you cannot enact it with people predetermined to like you. It is the
process that then becomes phony, meaning it is impossible for those people to be the “perfect result of the process” (which is analogous to the “perfect human” meaning the “perfect result of the process”) since the process itself
wasn’t a process at all, and was a false illusion in that case.
Both God and the devil treat their servants terribly. The only difference is the end result, and that’s the only place I want to be - the end - in heaven.
Even saints do not necessarily like to suffer (it wouldn’t be suffering then) so even a wonderful saint might make a comment that is skewed by her own perception rather than being a true statement about God’s character. God does not treat us terribly, in the objective sense, we simply think so as we do not see the long run from our vantage point, much like a patient may think a doctor is being cruel if the process of his healing hurts or is uncomfortable. As suggested above, suffering only directly comes from God if it is justified discipline for sins we have committed, and any good parent does the same. Again, God does not treat us terribly; such horrific suffering that is not mere discipline comes from the Fall of Man, and God for His part hasn’t directly and fully undone the effects of that yet because it would undermine the goal He had planned out, a goal that can actually be
enhanced (much to the Devil’s dismay) by that mishap we call the Fall; knowing that God loves us, we mustn’t expect Him to undermine His ultimate goal at any point in time, especially since in the long run, which is hard to see for now, that goal is also for
our own greater good will make
our destinies all the more splendid for it.
This is why I want the Beatific Vision. I don’t want to live here on earth, I’m tired of suffering. I’m tired of being pushed away from God by suffering. I’m tired of it. I just want to be with God. Period. Why won’t he understand that and stop pushing me away by dumping all this suffering on me? Why does he hate me that much that he won’t want to DRAW ME CLOSER to him?
The specifics of how long each individual human must endure the process is something the reason for which I do not think I could grasp perfectly. Perhaps you, BobCatholic, have the potential to be a most exquisite and marvelous demonstration of how lovable God is, since to ultimately choose and love Him despite all the mental anguish you endure currently would be a beautiful thing. Thus, though I argue not all of your suffering is
inflicted by God, perhaps His
allowing it is because He knows you are capable of choosing Him after all that, and that then you may be one of the more glorious examples of having loved Him once you enter into the Beatific Vision. Rather than “hating” you, God may in the end prove to have loved you in a most special way, and you may be one of His most prized and beloved successes once you enter the Beatific Vision, specifically
because of what you are enduring, something that would be impossible (again, as in logically contradictory, not because God “isn’t powerful enough” to do it) if you had been in the Beatific Vision instantly.
Blessings in Christ,
KindredSoul