Same result. I’m not sure why you think this is somehow a deeper commitment than what I expressed.
I like very much your exchange of feelings and questions. If I may I would like to send you this thoughts of mine.
Thsi is an answer to you and to Maryj “So how do you ask forgivness from God?”
The result of forgivness is the sameas you say, and in one sense it is true.
The depth comes form how you perceive God, how you see and feel him. If He is outside, a freind, a close freind, or if He is inside the fountain of your existence, the giver of life, of all the gifts you have, the one who is leading you to eternal-life. Your vision of God determins how you relate, hence how you ask forgivness to God.
God , the ‘All in all’ is not an external entitiy who police creation, is a living and ever renewing source inside, you come to discover this through prayer, meditation on the Bible an Contemplation. It is Him who makes you realise the wrong you have done, or thought, or your wrong attitude, or your distorted conception or vision.
In the bottom line it is always something hurting Him and hurting you, also if in apparence could be seen as an offence to another person. As He is in all of us and in all creation any wrong doing, to persons, animals, environment, thought, action, in final analysis is a wrong doing towards Him.
Now the difference in depth consist exactly in this , if you treated the matter only as a sin aginst another person, or if you realise that you are damaging your relationship with Him, who is the only Goodness and the only true treasure you can have in your life.
So the asking of forgivness can be an exterior act, as you do witht the person you have offended or an interior act in the development of your relationship with Him.
In this second case is very difficult that you are going to commit the same mistake or sin, because the repentance, or need of forgivness, is something that has grown from the deapth of your heart and in relating with Him, (and he knows it before we feel it, that is why we are forgiven as we acknowledge it) not just a realisation that you have done something not acceptable according to the law.
Your perception of the person you have offended will start to change, you will discover how the love of God is in her or him as He is in you. You start to see how that mistake you have done was permitted by the ‘Oneness’ who is in you so that you are able to take a further step in His direction. Our mistakes and our sufferings are an invitation to deepen our relationship with Him.
We realise this only after, at the moment of happening, we are so grossly involved with our doing, or suffering that we do not realize this; only a successive pondering give us enlightment till we realize that it is our relationship with Him that is the central focus of all that happnes.
I hope tha this open heart pondering could be of assistance for you, it has helped me to clarify my own vision.
God bless