Two things, in your prayer you said the protestants seemed right and asked God for help and that you would be a baptist or what ever denomination, rather than asking to be more like his Son in knowledge and wisdom or become a Christian. Just the first thing i noticed.
The second and more important; you took a something you believe came from God and made it your own; you said Jesus did not give a relative to Mary; yet Jesus clearly said who was His brother, sister mother and He was speaking of believers, not non-believers. At that scene you describe, Jesus had no believing biological brothers; therefore consistent with his word He gave His spiritual and true brother in Christ, John, to take care of His mother, which fulfills the Jewish tradition in spirit and truth. So whatever came and gave you assurance was based on misunderstanding and therefore not from God.
Forgive me for saying this so bluntly, but you are an accuser like the pharisees.
You cannot handle the fact and so you twist my words and say that the things from God came from the other side…
I asked God to put me where He wanted me!
I can only challenge you to do the same as I did then: to say in truth and sincerety: “GOD I want to be where YOU want me to be! Not where I want me to be. If you will, I will be Catholic tomorrow”. I dare you today!!!
I asked sincerely and God answered me.
The brothers you quote Jesus for having were also following Jesus… I could mention James called “the brother of Jesus”. John was not kin to Jesus, but James was and he was a disciple, and he should absolutely have taken care of Mary according to you since he, according to you, was both disciple and Mary’s own son. But Mary was given to John.
So your argument does not hold if you say none of Jesus relatives followed Him and that this was the reason why Jesus would give his mother to a spiritual follower… . Mary was given to none of those you believe to be her children…So according to you the passage at the Cross is rather useless because Mary would not need John then, she had James, the brother of Jesus, her own son… according to your interpretation…
No matter how you wriggle, you cant twist Scripture.
There was no child of Mary there except Jesus… admit it man.
This is what the Lord gave me to understand and you try so hard to find fault in it.
You remind me of the pharisees whom Jesus admonished because they let people give money to the temple which should have been used to provide for their old parents (Matt 15: 5). When Jesus was so harsh on people who did not respect the command to honour one’s parents how do you think He likes your games right now, just to get out of the obvious fact that Jesus would never take away the duty of a biological brother (that would bring him blessings and a long life)…
You really have entangled your self and call Jesus a man who breaks the law on behalf of others and put even the ten commandments out of effect… next thing I guess you will say Jesus did not honour His mother.
You are amazingly proud.
As I was given the word from Scripture, I was also given in that same flash, the meaning of it. But the truth is you can’t handle what has been passed on in the Church from the beginning and which the good Lord confirmed to me when I prayed a prayer you probably never prayed because you are so steeped in mistrust towards the Catholic Church.
Give your will and mind over to the Lord… thats all I can say to you.
