Adulterous Man:
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When he decided that his good was better than God’s Good, he just stopped resisting.
OneSheep:Okay, he decided that his good was better than God’s good.
OneSheep: (to the man) You believed at the moment that God’s will was less important than your own “my will above God’s”. But is this the truth, that God’s will is less important than your own?
Man: Of course not! I knew that all along. Before and after!
OneSheep: I’m confused now. On the one hand you said “I knew that all along” that God’s will is more important than your own, but on the other hand you said that you decided “your good was better than God’s good” at the moment you sinned.
Are you saying that you knew “before and after” but not at the moment of the decision? Did the “knowing” of God’s good sort of disappear, fall by the wayside, was overcome by “my will is more important right now”?
Man: I meant that I knew throughout. It wasn’t a case of forgetting or putting aside.
OneSheep: So, you knew throughout that God’s good was more important than your own, but you decided that your good was better than God’s.
Are you saying that you simultaneously thought God’s good was more important than your own, but that you decided that your good was better than God’s? Hmmm.
It is clear to me that you had the two thoughts in your mind, but if the thoughts were simultaneous, there would be inaction. You decided that your good was better than God’s at the period of adultery, just as you stated.
You are saying that the “knowing” did not disappear or fall by the wayside, so what happened to “God’s good is more important than my own?” Where did it go?
Man: I can only explain it by saying that what you describe here- knowing God’s good is best and still deciding that I want my own good- is at the very heart of sin. I don’t want to submit to God. I let my pride lead me to reject God’s will.
OneSheep: Okay, you not only decided that you wanted your own good, you acted on your decision, you rejected God’s will. Your truth, for the moment, was that your good was better than God’s, if you are a behavior-always-follows-reason individual. So, if you are a behavior-always-follows-reason individual, then your reason was, as you stated previously, an untruth, obviously flawed. And in that case, you had in your head that what you were doing was not wrong, what was wrong was the “truth” you were following. Adam and Eve had the same problem, remember? They were following an untruth when they doubted God. They were saying “God was joshing us! This fruit looks good!”.
So, either you were:
- “reasonably” following an untruth, or
- you are not a behavior-always-follows-reason individual or
- another possibility, please explain. Is it possible that you were temporarily blinded?
Which is the case?
Man: I am human, complex and fallible. I can know what is right and yet do the opposite.
OneSheep: No, sir, I am sorry for challenging you on this, but either you did not do the opposite, or you are lying to me. You told me that you decided that your good was better than God’s good. So, you did not do what you thought was wrong, you thought what you were doing was better, a better good. As you told me, you decided such.
If you would like to now change your story and say that you can “know what is right and do the opposite”, then your answer falls along the lines of #2 above. Are you changing your story now, are you telling me that you are not a behavior-follows-reason individual?
I didn’t decide it was better. Man does what he sees as “a” good, not necessarily the highest good. They are not necessarily the same thing.
OneSheep: But man is also judged by his behavior, is he not? Your choice to commit adultery became what you saw as the best thing to do at the moment, otherwise you would not have done it. You still did not tell me what happened to the thoughts of God’s good when you made the choice, but it is quite obvious that
something happened to the commitment to God’s good. Are you yet willing to admit that you did as Eve, doubt that “eating the fruit” would lead to death?
Man: (?)
Indeed, when you made the choice did you even consider your wife, crying about your poor choice, crying about the loss of relationship, having one of the most Earth-shattering things ever to happen to her? Were you thinking about your life commitment to her, how much you love her and how your whole life revolves around her?
Man: (?)
OneSheep: I have an additional question for you. You have decided to repent from your sin. Why have you decided to repent?
Man:
I knew what I did was adultery.
I knew adultery was a grave matter.
I did it anyway.
I sinned, therefore, I repent.
OneSheep: Okay, you are saying that you “knew” before, during, and after the affair that what you did was a grave matter. No change there according to your testimony. What happened that led to your repentance, what triggered the repentance? Something must have changed, something must have happened along the way. You were in the affair, and something happened. What happened?
In all repentance there is a change of mind, a change of “reason”.
Man: (?)