Why Me

[john78]

I have been asking this for a long time, and I am starting to barely grasp it.

Maybe others have as well. And what I have been wondering lately is why does God love me ? I mean in the grand scheme of things I am really no body that special, I dont have a ton of money, I am not a powerful politician making giant decisions on peoples lives.

And I never really thought about this much until I entered my discernment, an it is such a puzzle, created in His image and likeness, He loves us so much His Son died for me on the Cross.

an i can only think why, I didn’t do anything ! I use to be really angry with God at one point in my life… wanting so many answers to so many things, now I have narrowed down my answers to really wanting to just know " why me " , point me in the right direction of where You want me to go, and what are my Spiritual gifts and help me use them properly.

I guess we all deal with these questions to some degree or another but I personally can barely sleep at night anymore, I probably have a bit of a sleeping disorder that could be checked out, but I try to sleep and eventually these questions arise before I finally drift off into sleep for a few hours.

Some people can answer this easier than others, those who are happily married, or have careers, those who are parents…

But me I have nothing really, no job, no friends , no love interest, I am doing the best i can to care for my mother… an I am left with this question at times, why in the world do you care about me at all let alone enough to die for me…

in turn it has only made me want to seek Christ even harder, in the limited ways i can, an then to enter into a discernment towards the priesthood in the process… sheesh come on…

on the other hand i guess one could say I love the Church, I do actually volunteer so that is work, an my friends are the angels and saints that hear my prayers along with Christ !

so spiritually i do have a lot, physically not so much… but then again neither do the poor an it makes me wonder how spiritually well off they are… some are, some not…

SO

do others here struggle with your own " why me " in this regards to a relationship with God / Christ, and how have you responded or experienced from it ?

 

[mab23]

I am a very positive person despite my downfalls in life

and I seem to think “Why Me?”

in terms of growing up with parents who love me, and being shown the true church

why I wasn’t born in some third world country starving, or being subject to war and violence like other parts of the world

I feel like I am truly blessed and even though I don’t have everything I wan’t material wise I am so thankful for what I have -

this probably doesn’t help but its my rant

 

[indymb]

I found the “why me” answer before the Blessed Sacrament and in contemplation of the Source of all love. We are made in His image, and are His sons and daughters. He did prove it with His own Son, the word made flesh. God gave us His son to show the way, even onto death. I have sometimes started sobbing, just imagining the ultimate meaning of that kind of love - to come to this world knowing the ignoble death to result, and that all-too-human point in Gethsemane, asking to bypass the cup, but Thy will be done! The scene from “The Passion of the Christ” come to mind, the one raindrop, almost a Godly teardrop, falling from the ski.

God and Jesus (and the saints whose lives lead us) are beyond time in eternity. So, little as you and I am, they are always there for us, in prayer and in fulfillment of the desire to be one with Him. I ask God’s grace flow to you that you may even feel that enormous love! Peace.

 

[Sair]

Back when I was growing up Catholic, a phrase that used to give me great comfort - although I’m not sure who is supposed to have said it, perhaps St Therese? - was, “God loves each one of us as if there were only one of us to love.” That seemed like a beautifully poetic encapsulation of the idea of divine love.

Be that as it may, it’s one thing to appreciate the poetry of such an idea, and quite another to grasp it in any real sense. I no longer have any vestiges of Catholic belief, but what I do have are friends and family who love me, even though there are plenty of times when I wonder why anyone would, indeed, how anyone could.

Based on your OP, it sounds like you may be suffering from some form of depression - something that is very far from uncommon, but fortunately also very treatable. One of the best things you can do for yourself right now - as you intimate in your post - is focus on the things you do that are positive, the things that bind you to the world and to the people you love, the ways you contribute to the happiness and well-being of others. They are the things that make you a worthwhile human being, not any measure of wealth or of power over others. They are also the things that, if you believe in the Gospels, would make you worthy in the eyes of Jesus. The whole point is that he cares not a jot for any worldly position, but only what you do with the lot you have in life. From your own perspective, focus on what you can do and do it; don’t tie yourself in knots worrying about what you can’t change - that is one thing I have learned the hard way over the past couple of years…