I accuse myself of merorganizing a demonic cult. Now I am his by his lead and thus he says “Strengthen your brethren” (Lk. 22:32) to those in need. What a disaster I came to! I am no different then those who struggle, and those who struggle will find rest, if they be contrite.
The Vatican in 1970 said to uphold St. Thomas Aquinas as one of the highest teachers in the Church, he said in his commentary on Second Corinthians, "For since every evil must be punished either by man or by God, if he [God] does not punish here, it is better that a man punish in himself the evil that he has done than that God do it, because as it says in Heb. (10:31): “It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.”’ (n. 272)
This is a recommendation by the Angelic Doctor to do penance, which is said a number of times throughout scripture. May I suggest two external solutions: a hairshirt, and the development of the devotion to the Rosary of the Holy Wounds.
The more prayer you partake in (ie. the Rosary and Eucharistic Adoration) the more you conform to a mission, and regain your sanity in the mode of your body.
The sacraments are to be dilgently recieved by those who are contrite.
“The Lord is near unto them that are of a contrite heart: and he will save the humble of spirit. Many are the afflictions of the just; but out of them all will the Lord deliver them. The Lord keepeth all their bones, not one of them shall be broken.” (Ps 33 [34]:19-21, vulgate)
Do penance and give yourself to others (ie. offering to buy a soda to someone in a convenience store - in most cases they will refuse your offer) and this is a just mode to a disordered circumstance.
We all have to admit our disaster, and take on Christ in his own disaster, and become him by being a gift to others, and thereby become a gift to God of his own likeness.
