Wasn’t it Saint Paul who said that any spirit that is of God will proclaim that Jesus Christ is Lord and such a proclamation can only be made by the Holy Spirit. Literally demons can’t even say the words.
Demons work their way into your life taking babysteps that usually work in the following order:
- If they can make you curious, then you start to open up to their presence
- if you start to open up to their presence then they have ‘permission’ to be around you.
- If they have permission to be around you they can begin to harass you
- Through harassment either directly or indirectly they start to break you down.
- Eventually they will try to gain entry to your person through trust so you invite them in because you think it is an angel or a family member OR through fear as they start haunting you and attacking you waiting for you to sin and keep prying the door wider and wider…
At each step along this path it gets harder and harder to get rid of the demons. More work, more prayer…
It takes years of study along with a very clear and utterly honest view of your own soul to properly discern such a spirit. (See the spiritual exercises of St. Ignatious.) Because our souls find comfort around spirits that are in the same state as our own soul.
Basically you have to first know the state of your own soul because our souls, like human beings in general, is comfortable around other spirits similar to it:
- If your soul is in a state of sin, then unclean souls feel comfortable to it.
- If your soul is in a state of grace then unclean souls feel uncomfortable to it.
After you determine that, and it takes a long time to really make an effort to truly awknowledge your imperfections and clean up your soul through confessions and work. You need to get control over your thoughts and emotions and your food intake. Basically you need to be driven by your will to do good and the right things. You also need to learn scripture forwards and backwards as that IS the word of God and it can help you to judge spirits.
Only after this you can begin the process of learning how to pay attention to the movements of your soul. This is NOT your emotions but your inner most quiet place, your soul. Once you understand this and you are faced with a spirit you can pay attention to how your soul reacts and then this can help you to judge the spirit before you.
BUT to get to this place takes years of work and a good solid spiritual mentor and/or a Priest. Lots of work.
On a very practical level I will tell you that I don’t believe what you saw was a good spirit and / or angel by any means. Seriously if you think about the bible you never hear of a person seeing such a thing nad it disappears. Angels come to deliver messages, not to disappear.
If I were you I would pray the Lord’s Prayer where at the end it says “deliver me from evil.” Each night before bed. Try not to think about it nad try not to be curious about it. I know that is hard though.
I hope this helps.
God Bless!
Cor