When I try to come up w/ an explanation for my tears today (can’t remember the last time I cried), the first thing that comes to mind is DH’s complete overlooking of my trying to help him. Lately I’ve been ditching our 3.5 yo on him to deal w/ in the mornings, mainly so I can have some peace and enjoy my other kids and get to work on time. But also, he makes a lot of noise with his hissy fits and I’m afraid DH is going to bark at BOTH of us to keep it down so he can get his extra 5 or 10 minutes of sleep.
He texted me Monday that he was sick of DS’s morning antics. Without really thinking “I’m going to do this act of charity for DH” I just assumed upon myself the task of getting this kid oriented to mornings as part of my overall overdue discipline overhaul w/ this kid. So yesterday I got him up and he was dressed and eating when I left. DH was in a mood last night, but when I asked him how that morning went, he said better, but there was no thank you in there for me. I shouldn’t be so proud, but it really woulda meant a lot to me to hear that. This morning, I took it a step further and took DS to the sitter so DH wouldn’t have an extra stop to make. So far, not a word from him.
On one hand, I don’t want to make the excuse that I’ve been single-handedly manning the full load of everything related to our children on top of working full time for the last 7 years. . .just b/c I’m able-bodied and more oriented to these tasks than DH. But COME ON!!! I’ve been late to work the last 2 days taking on the extra child in the morning which means I have to work late, which means DH is later getting back to work and has to work late himself.
I have enough stress from work, and DH is prob. sick of hearing me cry about it, but I really need some comfort right now. I already mentioned to him the other day that I need all the extra help I can get, and he said ok, but it hasn’t amounted to any action on his part. I AM SO TIRED!!!