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mandy30
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A few years back, I was wanting to change my life around. I stopped drinking and smoking and started gaining an interest in my faith. I was reading books and praying at night to myself and would pray silently to God for patience, to be my best as a mother, etc…Just daily difficulties I seemed to be having at the moment.
One night I woke up terrified and I don’t know why. I had no dreams of anything that I could recall, and just woke up that way in the middle of the night. I believe it was around Christmas time because my bedroom door was open and there was light illuminating from the living room and that was usually the only time I left any lights on. So anyway, I woke up terrified and I started praying for God to take my fear, and all of a sudden I hear this very raspy, deep and ugly voice that said, why are you praying, there’s no God here, or He’s not listening. I instantly stopped praying and became frozen. I was so scared I don’t think I even moved or remembered to breathe. I did keep praying silently, and what seemed like forever I was able to cover my head with my blankets. That hasn’t happened since, but I remember I slept with the lights on for a while!
Another incident was when I lived in an apartment in October 2009-March 2010. There was a time when I was sitting in front of my TV and I heard papers rustling, and my papers that were on the couch moved.
There was another incident where I was sitting in my little living room and I heard a noise in my bathroom like something falling. When I went to check it out, there was my necklace on the floor by the toilet. I have no idea how that could’ve happened because I had a glass candle holder with a lid on it and the lid had a metal thing that was about an inch on top of it so I could grab that and lift the lid off. I wrapped my necklace around that so it would stay in place and wouldn’t fall. So when it did fall, I was confused how that happened.
Another time in the middle of the night, I got up to use the restroom. It was dark and when I came out and was going through the small kitchen, I had the feeling that something was behind me and felt warmth on the back of my neck. Almost like breathing on my skin.
And now in this house I don’t get scared but when I first moved in I would hear knocking coming from my bedroom. I haven’t heard it in a while, but that just struck me as odd.
I don’t know if this is relevant, but when I was like between 7-9 I stayed home by myself and was told not to turn any lights on until my parents came back. It was like 5 in the evening and it was already dark, and my parents were going to the store quick. So when I was sitting on the floor in front of the TV I felt something on my stomach. To me it felt like someone ran their hand over my stomach. That was the only time I ever experienced anything young…
So I am just trying to find out or make sense of what this means or could mean. I don’t know what to think. I am just looking for any kind of feedback from anyone. I haven’t really researched any of this or talked to too many people about it. And when I did no one really knew what to say or give any advice. So if you know where I can research this I’d appreciate it.
One night I woke up terrified and I don’t know why. I had no dreams of anything that I could recall, and just woke up that way in the middle of the night. I believe it was around Christmas time because my bedroom door was open and there was light illuminating from the living room and that was usually the only time I left any lights on. So anyway, I woke up terrified and I started praying for God to take my fear, and all of a sudden I hear this very raspy, deep and ugly voice that said, why are you praying, there’s no God here, or He’s not listening. I instantly stopped praying and became frozen. I was so scared I don’t think I even moved or remembered to breathe. I did keep praying silently, and what seemed like forever I was able to cover my head with my blankets. That hasn’t happened since, but I remember I slept with the lights on for a while!
Another incident was when I lived in an apartment in October 2009-March 2010. There was a time when I was sitting in front of my TV and I heard papers rustling, and my papers that were on the couch moved.
There was another incident where I was sitting in my little living room and I heard a noise in my bathroom like something falling. When I went to check it out, there was my necklace on the floor by the toilet. I have no idea how that could’ve happened because I had a glass candle holder with a lid on it and the lid had a metal thing that was about an inch on top of it so I could grab that and lift the lid off. I wrapped my necklace around that so it would stay in place and wouldn’t fall. So when it did fall, I was confused how that happened.
Another time in the middle of the night, I got up to use the restroom. It was dark and when I came out and was going through the small kitchen, I had the feeling that something was behind me and felt warmth on the back of my neck. Almost like breathing on my skin.
And now in this house I don’t get scared but when I first moved in I would hear knocking coming from my bedroom. I haven’t heard it in a while, but that just struck me as odd.
I don’t know if this is relevant, but when I was like between 7-9 I stayed home by myself and was told not to turn any lights on until my parents came back. It was like 5 in the evening and it was already dark, and my parents were going to the store quick. So when I was sitting on the floor in front of the TV I felt something on my stomach. To me it felt like someone ran their hand over my stomach. That was the only time I ever experienced anything young…
So I am just trying to find out or make sense of what this means or could mean. I don’t know what to think. I am just looking for any kind of feedback from anyone. I haven’t really researched any of this or talked to too many people about it. And when I did no one really knew what to say or give any advice. So if you know where I can research this I’d appreciate it.