Would this constitute the "will to sin"?

[timeandeternity]

The other week, I was about to watch a movie when I thought, “Well, it would be better for me to mortify myself, since it would help me in some serious spiritual battles that I’m having right now.” But then I thought, “I don’t really care if this weakens me and deprives me of strength when I have to fight against sin–very possibly even mortal sin–I’ll have the piece of gum anyway.” I remember being aware that I might commit a mortal sin later because of not mortifying myself. I got rid of these thoughts quickly, but only because I wanted to watch the movie.
The act of watching the movie itself was not a mortal sin, but would this circumstance constitute the will to commit a mortal sin, which *is *a sin? Even though the movie was not a near occasion of sin, which always involves the will to sin?

 

[Trishie]

The movie wasn’t an occasion of sin but your attitude was. You made a simple entertainment into an occasion of deliberate sin by deciding you didn’t care whether it led to sin. Odd, I’d have thought! What we should be thinking about is not mortal sin, mortal sin, mortal sin, but pleasing God, living in love of God and of other people.
If you read Matthew 25 verses 31-46, you’ll see that Jesus’ criteria for your/our judgement is whether or not we live lives of practical love and kindness. His commands were 'love God above all and others as yourself."

God bless you.

You do perhaps know that we can also offer good times, entertainment, leisure as a gift to God if we do so with generous hearts? What matters either way is the generous heart.
A penance offered grudgingly is less valuable that such a gift.

“A spark of pure love is more precious before God, more useful for the soul, and richer in benedictions for the Church than all other works taken together.” (St John of the Cross)

“Each one should give what he has decided in his own mind, not grudgingly or because he is made to, ‘for God loves a cheerful giver.’” [Proverbs 28:2]

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:6-9