“Short” version first, because perhaps you don’t feel like reading longer posts… I converted 6 years ago, almost exactly. I experienced God particularly strongly twice, but once was BEFORE conversion (even before the first weak one).
It started on the 30th or 31st of January this year. I was pregnant with my dream child - I wanted to have five kids so much… But that day I heard that the baby is suffering from holoprosencephaly and probably also trisomy 13. Later that was confirmed. It was such a heavy blow, that at first I couldn’t stop crying. I was heartbroken over this. On my way home I offered it up to Jesus for my mum’s conversion (we had then a horrible breach in our relationship over what she said about being pregnant… again). But I wasn’t all in, I was still far from where I am now. It took some weeks - but that day God brought me back to him, again. I was a believer, I believe still, I wasn’t exactly tepid, but still, I started experiencing God in a new way. I had nobody else that strong to lean on to. It was the first time in my life that what Jesus said that His yoke is light and sweet (Matthew 11:28-30) rang true for me. God has been powerfully helping me through all that experience - finding a new doctor (the first said “we have to end this” - meaning abortion…), a new hospital, but mostly, I started to feel that burden lighten, it was not just bearable, but sweet… I saw suffering in a new light - it was more theoretical before. And for the first time in my life I got detached from my life - in a sense, that I’m earnestly not afraid of death, I love my husband and all my children, but I love God more, God has worked His miracle in me. And for me - but not the complete healing of my daughter. I started praying for miracoulus healing at first, and I did go back to that prayer from time to time, but more often - as time went by, I started to pray that His will be done, because He knows better what’s best…
And then my baby died. Inside the womb. God helped me through all this, objectively a very hard, even extreme time, by making it also sweet, but hard too. It was sorrow, mixed with peace. There were a few times that I fell under the cross (cried ans felt unhappy), but on the whole - I’d never believe I’d live through such a thing like this… It taught me how powerful God’s help is, how good He is, how compassionate, merciful and loving.
Last but not least, through my baby’s intercession the breach in the family (my mum) was healed, and things really changed on that level…
Long version, the second half is about the difficult time - the beginning:
My conversion story
Long version - when that period ended and my baby died:
Zosia died