Recent content by scrupulousrvrt

will call doctors office tomorrow and leave a message. it just might be too soon to increase meds but i’ll ask for a specialist if the doctor calls back.

Got an increase in meds but scrupulosity is still killing me. it’s also causing eczema. and it caused spontaneous ejaculation (sorry for the tmi)

posted on another forum: It’s happening. my brain is self destructing and my conscience is in free fall. almost everything i do is a sin and im constantly bombarded with doubts, intrusive thoughts and obsessions. particularly around demonic possession and blasphemy. my dr’s appointment got me a...

Dr’s appointment tomorrow. i suffered an autistic meltdown then shutdown. suffering severe prayer and autistic burnout. almost relapsed back into alcoholism (but there wasn’t any available, hence the shutdown). Please pray that my coding faith make it to the end of the day, even though...

Addendum: i’m so burnt out i can’t tell if it’s scrupulosity im suffering from. all i know is, the slightest effort is going to make the scrupulosity come roaring back and there’s no way in hell i’m going to sit back and let sin take over. Speaking of hell, i though i flinging my brain there so...

that’s the thing, i’m working alongside my psychiatrist about the marijuana and so far, the only thing available to me is cold turkey. no detox center treats marijuana addiction/withdrawal and residential treatment programs are in the thousands range. my next appointment with a psychiatrist (my...

Thanks for your prayers. the ocd has gotten so bad i also have 3 kind of obsessions and smoke marijuana to keep myself from losing faith from the scrupulosity. doesn’t help the fact i’m battling active addiction. i reduced my intake to once a day down from 2 bowls every 3 hours. still battling...

Idk who still frequents here but i need emergency prayers because scrupulosity has me up the wall and in confusion. i’m getting a spiritual director for the faith and have a psychiatrist for OCD. I’m desperate for relief and i’m not even sure if i’ll wake up Catholic tomorrow.

Now I say, does any’ya taste a’ fine crawdads. ‘Ave any yous had spicy crawfish? Theys good eatin!

It seems like no matter how hard I try, no matter how many times I’m tempted, it feels like I’m in mortal sin all over again. Just having fleeting memories or thoughts (or conjuring them for a split second due to obsession) sends me right back to square one. I can’t keep going on everyday like...

Why does the condemnation of those who attack the EF regarded as anathema, but those who downtalk the OF apparently don’t suffer the same condemnation. It seems like the so-called “Traditionalists” think they are above reproach, while anybody who even dares to question their position on EF vs EO...

That’s the good news. The bad news is I’m morally/spiritually and physically exhausted and any amount of effort will bring back the obsessions. I almost had a meltdown from guilt/depression and I’m trying to hold on.

I’m in Narragansett, Rhode Island at a relative’s cottage for a fortnite. The Beach, Galilee, fish markets and Beer!

I want to have my sins absolved tomorrow even though I can confess them on Wednesday during adoration and I have no idea what to do. My regular confessor told me to make an act of contrition and told me it doesn’t have to be perfect, that the Lord sees our hearts and knows our intentions. I...

And it’s not Good. In fact, the exact opposite! When I’m terrified (especially the past few days) I stay awake and borderline despair, half wishing I was either Protestant or never born. I think my literal fear comes from not only sin, but from the devil himself! How do I know if this fear is...