Scrupulosity ending Faith

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scrupulousrvrt

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Idk who still frequents here but i need emergency prayers because scrupulosity has me up the wall and in confusion. i’m getting a spiritual director for the faith and have a psychiatrist for OCD. I’m desperate for relief and i’m not even sure if i’ll wake up Catholic tomorrow.
 
Prayers ascending!
You have good help. In my experience, time spent in adoration of the divine Physicians is priceless.
 
scrupulousrvrt said:
Idk who still frequents here but i need emergency prayers because scrupulosity has me up the wall and in confusion. i’m getting a spiritual director for the faith and have a psychiatrist for OCD. I’m desperate for relief and i’m not even sure if i’ll wake up Catholic tomorrow.
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Relax, you will most certainly wake up Catholic.

Please work with your spiritual director and your psychiatrist. You're doing the right thing.
 
Thanks for your prayers. the ocd has gotten so bad i also have 3 kind of obsessions and smoke marijuana to keep myself from losing faith from the scrupulosity. doesn’t help the fact i’m battling active addiction. i reduced my intake to once a day down from 2 bowls every 3 hours. still battling it thanks to OCD, without which this would have been a smoother recovery 🙁.
My soul is bleeding faith and going into cardiac arrest and i’m afraid of losing faith as well as DP (to the point i can’t even go to the bathroom without my brain backfiring and flooding my head with impulses/temptations.)
 
Please seek medical help as soon as possible. I couldn't possibly be more emphatic about this. Your scrupulosity appears to be the OCD with which you struggle, spilling over into the realm of morality.

I cannot recommend marijuana except for medicinal purposes, and this, too, needs to be under the supervision of a physician. If you have an addiction problem, tell the doctor. There is help for such a thing.

Call your doctor right now.
 
HomeschoolDad said:
Please seek medical help as soon as possible. I couldn't possibly be more emphatic about this. Your scrupulosity appears to be the OCD with which you struggle, spilling over into the realm of morality.

I cannot recommend marijuana except for medicinal purposes, and this, too, needs to be under the supervision of a physician. If you have an addiction problem, tell the doctor. There is help for such a thing.

Call your doctor right now.
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that’s the thing, i’m working alongside my psychiatrist about the marijuana and so far, the only thing available to me is cold turkey. no detox center treats marijuana addiction/withdrawal and residential treatment programs are in the thousands range. my next appointment with a psychiatrist (my regular psychiatrist is out until october) is august 18.
 
scrupulousrvrt said:
that’s the thing, i’m working alongside my psychiatrist about the marijuana and so far, the only thing available to me is cold turkey. no detox center treats marijuana addiction/withdrawal and residential treatment programs are in the thousands range. my next appointment with a psychiatrist (my regular psychiatrist is out until october) is august 18.
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Well, a psychiatrist is a doctor of medicine, so he or she should be able to help you. Keep working together and think positively.
 
Addendum: i’m so burnt out i can’t tell if it’s scrupulosity im suffering from. all i know is, the slightest effort is going to make the scrupulosity come roaring back and there’s no way in hell i’m going to sit back and let sin take over. Speaking of hell, i though i flinging my brain there so i could love and serve God in a mindless, zombified state because im not about to let some misfiring cells damn me at every turn just because i happen to be alive. I tried looking into some podcasts and youtube videos and out of the sea of priests in this world only one (Fr Thomas Santa) addresses OCD based scrupulosity. everything else was pride this or pride that (hey, look, pridespeak!) I tried calling my spiritual director but have no luck.
 
scrupulousrvrt said:
Addendum: i’m so burnt out i can’t tell if it’s scrupulosity im suffering from. all i know is, the slightest effort is going to make the scrupulosity come roaring back and there’s no way in hell i’m going to sit back and let sin take over. Speaking of hell, i though i flinging my brain there so i could love and serve God in a mindless, zombified state because im not about to let some misfiring cells damn me at every turn just because i happen to be alive. I tried looking into some podcasts and youtube videos and out of the sea of priests in this world only one (Fr Thomas Santa) addresses OCD based scrupulosity. everything else was pride this or pride that (hey, look, pridespeak!) I tried calling my spiritual director but have no luck.
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Father Santa is right, scrupulosity (at least in a case such as yours) has a psychological cause, and is not pride.

Please work with your doctor regarding the OCD.
 
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