I don’t believe that any proof or disproof for existence of God exists. Why? There are arguments for these: (1) A person needs to be omniscient in order to prove that God exists since that is only God who is capable of understanding His essence. Hence a proof for existence of God does not exist and (2) A person has to be fool in order to disprove the existence of God as Bertrand Russell stated “If I were asked to prove that Zeus and Poseidon and Hera and the rest of the Olympians do not exist, I should be at a loss to find conclusive arguments.”
I suggest that you change your strategy to one of seeking probabilities, not certainties. For, as Descartes saw, there are just about no absolute certainties- except that you exist (in some form, though your identity is not an absolute certainty either, so you may be mistaken about that too!) No, you cannot have absolute proof that God exists- But you can’t have absolute proof that what you experience everyday is real either.
But I am confident that, after searching for many years and receiving God’s grace, God is real. The reality of God is far more convincing than atheism. I used to be agnostic (just check my first post). But I could no longer stay agnostic when I realized that the probability of God’s existence was way higher than the probability that atheism was true.
As I’ve said- you cannot have absolute proof of most things in life, but that doesn’t mean that one is reasonable in staying “agnostic” about them. I have no “absolute” proof that my parents love me. But that doesn’t mean that I stay “agnostic” about whether my parents love me or not. Instead, I take the data available and come to the reasonable conclusion that they did love me and continue to do so- based on the way they raised me, what they expressed and what they’ve done for me.
On the other hand, it could be an elaborate plot leading to some nefarious end that I’ve yet to figure out. You have real cases of a happy, married person who truly believes she is loved by her spouse actually find out that her husband was a government spy sent on a mission to infiltrate environmental groups (look this up- It happened in Britain!)
I see nature much like a computer program- it’s a system which functions on some basic principles. It bewilders me to no end how one could seriously believe that such a system has not been designed nor set up and that it needed no power outside itself to come into existence nor to sustain its very existence now. I find the current atheist response of “brute fact.” or “some day we’ll figure it out, but the answer can’t possibly be God.” to be shocking and myopic.
Now, as for proofs- Again, its the case of probabilities. The probability that Zeus exists is not high. However, we really can’t totally discount that some being existed in our past which was called Zeus and seemed to have to properties people back then ascribed to him. That said- it’s really unimportant, in the scheme of things. Zeus, as well as the other gods would have just been contingent creatures like us, albeit very impressive ones. Same goes for extraterrestrials. But the existence of God- the very source of existence, one who is not contingent- is a VERY DIFFERENT kind of proposition.
We are not talking about proving or disproving the existence of this or that being. We are talking about coming to the conclusion that the necessary being is necessary, because the existence of nature cannot be explained otherwise. You can come to know this via contemplating the fine-tuning argument, for instance, or via exploring the question “Why is there something rather than nothing?”
Add to all of this a little of Pascal’s Wager in the form of the fact that life objectively means NOTHING without God and eternal life, and that without God we have no objective morality- that is nothing is really right or wrong- And you’ll quickly realize that believing in God is the only logical option. Yes, there are better arguments for God that there are arguments for atheism. No, no “proof” is absolutely certain. But you can be confident that belief in God is warranted and vastly preferable.
Good resources this:
Fr. Robert Spitzer:
magiscenter.com/god-and-modern-physics-12-modules/
Dr. William Lane Craig:
reasonablefaith.org/