Now that a nearby parish set up perpetual Adoration of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament, I decided to have a weekly encounter with Our Lord there.
I’ve been to Adoration before and it was usually most blissful, but in these last couple of times since I started going there it’s been as dry as a desert. Actually, I’ve been through a rather dry period which got quite severe during Holy Week. I had hopes that the dryness would be gone by Easter, and I prayed at the feet of Jesus’ for it, but it’s not what He’s got in stock for me, it seems.
Anyways, what advices can you give me to make most of my time adoring the Lord?
God is giving you a great gift. It doesn’t feel like it, I know, but it is a very great gift.
It is a very small share in the desolation of Christ Jesus whilst He was on the Earth in its darkness, in the Garden of Gethsemane, during His Trial, His Scourging, the Carrying of the Cross, Death on the Cross, the Three Days in the Tomb and His descent into hell. You are gifted with a share in the darkness He experienced and it is only in the dark of faith that faith truly becomes faith.
I always think that before the Ressurection came the Cross and we cannot hope for the Ressurection without the trial of the cross.
When you are at Eucharistic Adoration as you know, you are before the Crucified and Ressurected Lord. For me, I like to console my Lord Crucified, tell Him of my sufferings, thank Him for them and offer them to Him united to His and ask Him to ‘Remember me when You come into Your Kingdom’.
I always believe that spiritual suffering is far greater than physical suffering. I think our Lord Jesus suffered greater in His Spirit than He ever did in His flesh though that was truly terrible. How much greater then did He suffer in Spirit. ‘My Spirit is sorrowful even unto death’, this was the only time Jesus mentioned any sorrow at His suffering and it was that of His Spirit.
I think that Jesus is calling you to His Cross and I also believe that Jesus is taking you ever closer to Him through the Dark Night of the Soul. How long will this last? Well only God knows that so just trust Him because He has your best interests at His Sacred Heart. Though the greater the dryness and its duration the greater the holiness developed in the soul.
Go before Him in the Blessed Sacrament at Eucharistic Adoration as He has inspired you to do and say this ‘I am here before You Lord Jesus suffering in my spirit, thank you and I give it to You. Amen.’ and just sit with Him for one hour, there is more love in this than a thousand words or beautiful thoughts. That indeed is a very pleasing prayer to Jesus.
In my prayer of life.