Here is a question one in your situation might ask: How important is the Eucharist to my hope for eternal salvation? If you start there you begin at the source of why the Church came into being in the first place, and why it has persisted against all odds for over two-millennia.
For me, the body and blood of Christ is the most cherished gift mankind has ever received. As a sacramental Roman Catholic I consider myself truly blessed to be able to partake of this transformational treasure. When I break it down to that most substantive and elemental state, all of the travail and bluster seem trivial by comparison. Go into a Church, kneel before the tabernacle…there is your Church…there is He Whom is worthy of all of your worship, thanksgiving and love.
You are at the crossroads of free will. He beckons, “follow me”, then proceeds onward. He leaves the choice in your hands. Good luck.
