Anxiety, Depression, and Panic Attacks

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Things just keep happening to me. What is going on God!!! Now it looks like I might be fired!!! We are graded each month on how we performed and the staff attending last month, either was coaxed into giving me a horrible grade or doesn’t like me. I know this sounds like conspiracy theories but I KNOW I did my best last month and I did not deserve a failing grade for the month. In fact I have preformed worse than that and received 3/5 scores for the month. Well due to my circumstances it might be grounds for dismissal or not renewing my contract next year (which is essentially the same as being fired). This WILL RUIN MY CAREER!!! I just dont understand why God is letting all of this happen to me. I am doing my best and it seems like it is never enough.

I really feel l like I am being persecuted here. I said something when I was frustrated/scared/anxious that upset my “boss” and I think she is holding it against me and essentially making my life miserable. I screwed up I know that I can’t put all of it on my anxiety but a large portion was because I was an anxious mess at that time. Now I am paying for it. Haven’t I paid for my sin. I am sorry, I dont want my life and my families life ruined because of something stupid I did. I AM PLEADING WITH YOU GOD HELP ME!!! I know I can’t do this alone but I feel like I am alone right now. I feel like God is just letting horrible things happen to me over and over again. I just dont understand. I should find out my fate on Monday, please I ask for any prayers that you all can spare.
 
I’m keeping you in my prayers, Roux. God bless you!

Lord, help Roux during this difficult time in his life. Relieve his anxiety and calm his spirit.
Lift Roux up from the feeling of being defeated.
I pray also Lord that Roux will not lose his job.
Amen.
 
catmom50 said:
I’m keeping you in my prayers, Roux. God bless you!

Lord, help Roux during this difficult time in his life. Relieve his anxiety and calm his spirit.
Lift Roux up from the feeling of being defeated.
I pray also Lord that Roux will not lose his job.
Amen.
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Thank you so much catmom. God bless
 
Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
I just found out my contract will not be renewed. I am scared that my life is ruined and I will not find another residency to take me. My wife, and my new baby are screwed with me as a horrible husband. God why why why have you forsaken me? I dont understand.
 
I’m keeping you in my prayers, Roux. I am sorry that your contract will not be renewed.
Maybe this might be a new chapter in your life. Don’t give up!

God bless you!!! 🙂
 
Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Our Father who art in Heaven hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come, Thy Will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us
And lead us not into temptation
But deliver us from evil
AMEN

Hail Mary , full of Grace
The Lord is with thee
Blessed art thou among women
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus
Holy Mary , Mother of God
Pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
AMEN

Saint Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle.
Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray;
and do Thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host -
by the Divine Power of God -
cast into hell, satan and all the evil spirits,
who roam throughout the world seeking the ruin of souls.
AMEN

In the Name of The Father and The Son and The Holy Spirit
AMEN :highprayer::signofcross:
 
catmom50 said:
I’m keeping you in my prayers, Roux. I am sorry that your contract will not be renewed.
Maybe this might be a new chapter in your life. Don’t give up!

God bless you!!! 🙂
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I’m just so scared that no one will take a chance on me and give me a shot at another residency. So I will be a MD but I wont have enough training to get a job anywhere. I am scared my life and my family’s life will be ruined. I desperately need God to give me strength because I am afraid that I dont have any left.
 
Well I have to thank and praise God for one victory. I just found out that the test that I had to retake, I passed! Unfortunately this is a bittersweet victory for me I am still with out a job in July. I have to say thank you St. Jude and thank you St. Theresa I love you both. Thank you everyone who has prayed and kept me in your prayers. God Bless you all

-Roux
 
Roux,

I offer you my prayers and empathy - I have also battled with depression and anxiety and panic attacks. Continuing the pray is really important, but it is also important to approach the problem from a physical and mental angle as well. Eat right, get exercise daily, stay away from caffeine, etc. Also, step back and see the big picture. Nothing in life is so tremendous that it will destroy us. Even major things like loss of a loved one, loss of a career, are not insurmountable crises.

It sounds like you are a perfectly competent physician, but that your anxiety is affecting your performance like a sprained ankle would effect an Olympic runner. It also sounds like your job is affecting your anxiety which then in turn affects your job. It’s a vicious cycle. The important thing is to GET BACK TO MENTAL HEALTH, which may take a shorter time than you think, and then once you are well again, you will be able to pursue your goals, rather than burdening yourself with thinking that your goals must be reached at any cost - that will only feed your anxiety, because it will make you feel that you are not reaching the goals.

I’m not sure if any of this makes any sense, but I think if you can make small daily victories with this regard, you may be surprised how quickly things turn around for the best. But believing that everything is crashing down will obviously make the anxiety worse. Make healing your number one priority, than you will be able to go out and heal others.
 
Chateau16 said:
Roux,

I offer you my prayers and empathy - I have also battled with depression and anxiety and panic attacks. Continuing the pray is really important, but it is also important to approach the problem from a physical and mental angle as well. Eat right, get exercise daily, stay away from caffeine, etc. Also, step back and see the big picture. Nothing in life is so tremendous that it will destroy us. Even major things like loss of a loved one, loss of a career, are not insurmountable crises.

It sounds like you are a perfectly competent physician, but that your anxiety is affecting your performance like a sprained ankle would effect an Olympic runner. It also sounds like your job is affecting your anxiety which then in turn affects your job. It’s a vicious cycle. The important thing is to GET BACK TO MENTAL HEALTH, which may take a shorter time than you think, and then once you are well again, you will be able to pursue your goals, rather than burdening yourself with thinking that your goals must be reached at any cost - that will only feed your anxiety, because it will make you feel that you are not reaching the goals.

I’m not sure if any of this makes any sense, but I think if you can make small daily victories with this regard, you may be surprised how quickly things turn around for the best. But believing that everything is crashing down will obviously make the anxiety worse. Make healing your number one priority, than you will be able to go out and heal others.
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I fully agree. 👍

You’re in my prayers, Roux.
God bless you!!
 
Chateau16 said:
Roux,

I offer you my prayers and empathy - I have also battled with depression and anxiety and panic attacks. Continuing the pray is really important, but it is also important to approach the problem from a physical and mental angle as well. Eat right, get exercise daily, stay away from caffeine, etc. Also, step back and see the big picture. Nothing in life is so tremendous that it will destroy us. Even major things like loss of a loved one, loss of a career, are not insurmountable crises.

It sounds like you are a perfectly competent physician, but that your anxiety is affecting your performance like a sprained ankle would effect an Olympic runner. It also sounds like your job is affecting your anxiety which then in turn affects your job. It’s a vicious cycle. The important thing is to GET BACK TO MENTAL HEALTH, which may take a shorter time than you think, and then once you are well again, you will be able to pursue your goals, rather than burdening yourself with thinking that your goals must be reached at any cost - that will only feed your anxiety, because it will make you feel that you are not reaching the goals.

I’m not sure if any of this makes any sense, but I think if you can make small daily victories with this regard, you may be surprised how quickly things turn around for the best. But believing that everything is crashing down will obviously make the anxiety worse. Make healing your number one priority, than you will be able to go out and heal others.
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I will try. My biggest fear is letting my self and my family down. I keep picutering my family and I struggleing to survive because I failed. I can not allow that. Yes I know that adds undo pressure on me but I just can not stop worrying about this. I guess the first step is to stop worrying about what the future holds and pray that God will provide. Thank you all for your advice and prayers. God Bless

-Roux
 
Roux said:
I will try. My biggest fear is letting my self and my family down. I keep picutering my family and I struggleing to survive because I failed. I can not allow that. Yes I know that adds undo pressure on me but I just can not stop worrying about this. I guess the first step is to stop worrying about what the future holds and pray that God will provide. Thank you all for your advice and prayers. God Bless

-Roux
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That is all you can do. I know this is a corny saying, but it’s true – do your best, let God do the rest.

You’re in my prayers, Roux.
God bless you!!!
 
Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
I just wish I knew that things were going to be ok. I woke up early this morning scared to death and just stared at my wife, wondering if she would be better off without me and my baggage. She doesn’t deserve to have all of this stuff to worry about and I dont deserve her being concerned about me either. I feel so despondent like things cant get worse and then they do. I have so many people counting on me and I keep letting them down. I don’t feel like my best is good enough and I feel like I can do nothing right. I just want to be at peace and happy again.
 
Roux said:
I just wish I knew that things were going to be ok. I woke up early this morning scared to death and just stared at my wife, wondering if she would be better off without me and my baggage. She doesn’t deserve to have all of this stuff to worry about and I dont deserve her being concerned about me either. I feel so despondent like things cant get worse and then they do. I have so many people counting on me and I keep letting them down. I don’t feel like my best is good enough and I feel like I can do nothing right. I just want to be at peace and happy again.
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First, I want to say that your wife and your son would not be better off without you. I’m sure they love you very much.

One of the other posters- Chateau16- had some good advice.

You’re still in my prayers, Roux
God bless you!!
 
Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
Roux,

God doesn’t love you because of what you can do for Him or your family or your profession, but because you are one His children that He created and died for. Even if you were to fail in everything else in this world - career, health, etc. - He would still love you with His infinite love. Your salvation does not depend on you, it depends on God. Therefore, trust in Him, and don’t worry about anything else.

Rather than looking at your anxiety as the worst thing in the world, consider it the Cross that you are to bear at this time if such be God’s holy will. Embrace the suffering it brings, offer that suffering to those that you love, and ask God to grant you the grace to endure this suffering in a holy manner, and remember that God will never give us more suffering than we can bear as long as we look to him in our time of need.

Take certain practical steps to help alleviate your anxiety - exercise, diet, rejecting worrisome and useless thoughts. Make frequent use of the Sacraments of Confession and Communion. Whatever anxiety and suffering may still be left over offer up to God.
 
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