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Chateau16
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One very good prayer for increased faith is the simple prayer uttered by the father of the child that Jesus heals in the New Testament: “I believe, help my unbelief!”
I agree I actually have about a 45 min commute and I make it a point to say the rosary each day on the way home from work. It is definitely calming and helps me to reflect (not to mention avoid road rage). The most significant anxiety that I have however is at work.Prayers for you- I’ve suffered from all three for most of my life. One thing that has helped is praying the Rosary.
You have to do with your life what you feel in your heart led to do. I understand you got into medicine partly because of your mother having cancer and wanted to help others. That is why you told your therapist that you couldn’t see yourself doing anything else…So my anxiety for the last year or more has gotten increasingly worse. I don’t know if it just the people I am working with (which frankly has best been described as a toxic environment) or if it is my career choice. When my therapist ask me yesterday why did you go into medicine my answer was “I can’t see my self doing anything else”. Not I want to help people, or I love treating people it seems like it was a default. This really has been bothering me. Am I doing the wrong thing? Should I be doing something else? Or am I using this as an escape route to avoid more anxiety producing situations? I always have said “I want to cure cancer” and I still stand by that but I dont know if pathology is the route I need to take. I have gotten to the point where I have even thought of giving up and going into research to avoid this pain. Having said (and this is superficial and shallow I know) research does not make much money and I already have almost $200,000 worth of loans to pay off from school alone. Money is any issue whether I want it to be or not. But I want to be happy, I am tired of being anxious and fearful and I feel like I have come to a crossroad.
I have recently come across a quote by Saint Padre Pio "Pray, hope, and don’t worry! ! Worry is useless. God is merciful and will hear your prayer. Prayer is the best weapon we have; it is the key to God’s heart. You must speak to Jesus not only with your lips but with your heart. In fact, on certain occasions, you should speak to Him only with your heart.” I am trying to begin to believe this and live by this but God it is so difficult especially with the constant fears of failure and unknowns swirling around me. I just wish there was a place in this world for me. I am beginning to feel like such an outcast. As always I appreciate any thoughts.
-Roux