Nan, about your comments on God’s existance outside of time. This was exactly how my sponsor explained it to me. It was a wonderful “a-ha” moment, when I finally “got it”.
To all my Catholic bretheren here who “get it” -
I want to profoundly than you all for the kind and encouraging comments you have said about my posts.
I walked away yesterday. I was written off as someone who wants to delve into incomprehensible deep theology and as someone who apparently couldn’t see my own hand in front of my face, after presenting what I thought was a simple answer to a certain scripture delimma (did the blind man sin?), and a certain simple theological conclusion (God is greater than everything, including time).
I realize now that some of the things I posted must have been so obvious, so reasonable, and so disturbing that to address them honestly could cause my confronter to have a crisis of faith.
I know how frightening a crisis of faith is. I understand why anyone who is deeply convinced of the truth as it has been presented to him would want to prevent that crisis at any cost, even if it means accepting his church leaders’ avoidance of issues and contradictory explanations for the faith he has been given.
We have people around us who would prefer to remain assured of their faith in simple, but rock-solid, ignorance. Even in the Catholic Church we have them. Saint Thérèse of Lisieux, the Little Flower, comes to mind. Blessed are our bretheren of simple faith; they may have as little capacity as a teacup, but it is completely overflowing. And cursed are those of us who struggle with great barrels that can never seem to be filled enough.
I myself had a crisis of faith as a teenager, when I was confronted with the writings of Erich von Danaken in his book “Chariots of the Gods”, in which I had to face the possibility that everything I had ever been taught, indeed the very core of my faith, could be wrong. I was in shock.
The result for me was a very unsettling several years when my church-going amounted to little more than “going through the motions.” Eventually, von Danaken was exposed as a fraud, and I realized that although he had alternate explanations for Jesus’ miracles (space aliens with advanced technology), he could never explain the ultimate origin of his aliens, nor where and how the universe itself came to be.
And that is how I realized that God must exist, how the universe literally demands a God who is so great that He can create everything that the universe itself can not create. The universe and time can change what already exists, but can not create itself out of nothing. Something greater than what we can sense with our five senses must be out there after all.
After that, it became a historical and scientific search to find out whether real religious truth existed, truth that was unchanging and provable, that did not tap-dance around uncomfortable issues, and that could stand up to the deep theological issues and hard questions with reliable, consistent answers.
The only place I found that truth to fully and completely exist is in the Catholic Church.
Again, a special thanks to my Catholic friends. You have encouraged me to continue.
Nan