I attended daily mass for the first time ever this evening.
There are a lot of recent factors in my life which have led me there…and as I walked in this evening, somehow I ended up sitting in the front row. Usually I can’t go, but I got off a little early tonight…and made it to Mass.
I almost didn’t know what to do with myself. I almost felt like I didnt’ belong. But I stayed, and in my confusion over where I sat I looked around for the holy Eucharist, for the Daily mass is held in the adoration chapel, not the main church.
I didn’t see it until Father came in, lifted the holder (I’m sorry, I don’t know the terms) and moved it in a cross pattern. I blessed myself as I saw others doing. Then he gave the entrance blessing. I nearly cried all the way through the mass. But being that I sat in the front row and there was another off to my left, I really struggled to hold the emotion in so as not to be disruptive.
I realized that I’ve NEVER been so close to the Eucharist during the Mass. And while Father was consecrating the hosts, I remember thinking, “Can’t you people see him! He’s STANDING RIGHT THERE!!!”
I’ve never felt Jesus’ presence so strongly, and it killed me that I couldn’t go to communion as I have not been to confession (I’m praying to go in the morning as I am taking the day off work for that purpose alone).
Um…I guess I can honestly say that if I attend confession tomorrow, that will be a HUGE blessing because I am so afraid to go after being a graceless sinner for so long. If attending daily mass can do that for me…think what it can do for you.
I can’t attend every day…but I will at least attend as much as possible after the experience I had tonight.
I would encourage everyone to go if they possibly can. If even a major sinner, suffering from death of the soul can experience that wonderful love in the presence of Christ, consider what graces a good Catholic can experience!