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StevenFrancis
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Sadie:But we do have evidence of some things. And even in our limited state, it seems to me that we could collect evidence of the work God is doing in this world. Why is everyone disagreeing with me? I don’t understand. We should be able to measure the difference between praying to God and not or between praying to the Christian God and not. We should be able to do this in a scientific way. It should always come out the same way, no matter who is doing the data collection. Just like no matter who is doing the collection, gravity always works. Why can’t this be done?
But so many atheists have done just that and come away feeling nothing. I have certainly done that and I feel my faith slipping away from me. I am trying so hard to hold on. I want to believe so badly. I still do believe, I don’t think that I’ll ever let go of God, but I’ve come here to build up my faith and all of my reading and questioning is just making that harder and harder. I go to confession weekly, I confer with my priest, I go to adoration weekly, I study the Bible, I pray, pray, pray. Please don’t tell me that I’m not trying hard enough or doing it right, or that I lack faith or that I don’t want to believe. That’s so insulting. And believe me, not having faith is not being in the “in crowd” where I am.
In rereading my post and seeing in your response here that you are even Catholic apparently, I feel some shame at the harshness. I am a convert, and only a few years in, mind you. I have never experienced “dryness” (which is what I believe you’re going through based on other posts I’ve read here. You kind of hit me up with this atheist bit, and I misunderstood. There is a very large modern movement of atheism and it really makes me want to cry. I don’t get atheism as much as many of them say they don’t get God. It’s quite foreign to me. There has never been a day in my life that I didn’t firmly KNOW that something was out there greater than myself, and could work in my life. I was misdirected for 48 years on where to turn that love and energy, but God works in His ways. Not mine. I’m just grateful He showed me the Church before I died. You’re already here. Like someone else here, (in a much more loving way) said: Pray. Talk to your priest. Not just in cofession, but in a one on one spiritual counselling of sorts. Just make an appointment to see him with your parish office. I have never had anything get an ounce worse, and most time have found excellent guidance just being in the presence of Jesus Christ in front of the tabernacle at my parish. I know everything doesn’t work for everyone, but in conjunction with whatever else you do, please don’t give on being in the presence of the blessed sacrament. Be nourished spiritually by the liturgy of the word and the liturgy of the eucharist. Love and be loved. He’s there. I promise. All the time.
God bless you in your struggle,
Steven