These types of prayer-thoughts continued despite my effort to separate myself from my faith.
For the life of me, I just could not separate myself from my faith. I never knew how much I think about God until I tried this experiment.
So, having shared all this, as an atheist do you think about being an atheist all the time the way I think about God all the time?
Quite an interesting post. I am just a few months into more serious doubt and still definitely have a habit toward praying to Jesus at work during the day. The only thing I would point out is that I want to say that this is more
habit than faith. That could be quite an assumption and forgive me for being wrong if I am. It’s not that I think you don’t believe what you are doing, but there is certainly another component of you having built a
habit out of constant involvement of thoughts of god into your life.
For me, this has changed from daily prayer to constant analysis of different arguments, thoughts, forum posts, debates, and the like. I think our thoughts end up forming to that which we either value or simply focus on this most.
So… for me: yes, I think about atheism/theism most of the time. It is the most important thing I have on my plate right now. I’d be interested to hear what others say.
I will add that consistent prayer through out the day, whether actually accomplishing anything via supernatural means, can perhaps be effective at motivation of action and ‘right’ thoughts. I haven’t sorted through the whole ‘basis-of-morality’ area yet, but I do see a need to have a motivating factor for actions and god/Jesus was that for me if I chose it to be. Requests to think the right thoughts, to be kind, to be patient, etc.
Do others here ‘talk to themselves’ as an alternative to prayer in order to self-motivate toward right actions, kindness, modifying one’s path toward where you want to be and who you want to become?