Beginning to lose my faith in God

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Some of you may recall earlier threads of total heartbreak and drug addiction, still dealing with them unfortunately, heartbreaker waltz back in like nothing happened only to leave again and even though it’s no excuse it has not stopped usage (although today has been my first straight day in months)

It seems everytime God brings a new person into my life they end up hurting me in some way, shape or form. I get so angry at him for constantly hurting me and can’t understand why. I’m a good person with a heart of gold and would never dream of doing what’s been done to me to anybody.

I don’t want to lose God or my faith but it is getting very difficult to do and want badly to lash out at him.

I pray that he stops torturing my heart, body and soul and finally gives me what I so desperately need 😦
 
kush22 said:
Some of you may recall earlier threads of total heartbreak and drug addiction, still dealing with them unfortunately, heartbreaker waltz back in like nothing happened only to leave again and even though it’s no excuse it has not stopped usage (although today has been my first straight day in months)

It seems everytime God brings a new person into my life they end up hurting me in some way, shape or form. I get so angry at him for constantly hurting me and can’t understand why. I’m a good person with a heart of gold and would never dream of doing what’s been done to me to anybody.

I don’t want to lose God or my faith but it is getting very difficult to do and want badly to lash out at him.

I pray that he stops torturing my heart, body and soul and finally gives me what I so desperately need 😦
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I was just thinking about your situation a few minutes ago. I was going to send you a PM to see how things are going.
This quote sums up what I believe about everything that God sends our way, or at least allows to happen:
GOD CONTROLS ALL EVENTS, WHETHER GOOD OR BAD
From Trustful Surrender to Divine Providence
Nothing happens in the the universe without God willing and allowing it. This statement must he taken absolutely of everything with the exception of sin. ‘Nothing occurs by chance in the whole course of our lives’ is the unanimous teaching of the Fathers and Doctors of the Church, ‘and God intervenes everywhere.’
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One little positive example is what just happened: God made sure that I found some way to contact you by you posting this and me finding it shortly after thinking of you.

Your problems are much more complex. We cannot know in this lifetime why it is that God allows some things.
Here’s what we DO know:
  1. God is omniscient/all-knowing. He is outside of time. He knows and sees all things and the results of all.
  2. God is all-loving. He will do whatever is necessary for the good of our immortal souls.
    No matter how dismal things get, we have to keep faith in God. He is our only hope.
For you my friend:
**
In the Name of the Father, and of the Son,
and of the Holy Ghost, Amen.

Our Father, Who art in Heaven,
hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done,
on earth, as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
and forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is
the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners,
now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

In the Name of the Father, and of the Son,
and of the Holy Ghost, Amen.**
 
Kush22, I am so sorry to read about your sufferings. I’m not great at giving advice on things like this, I started to type out a reply and just felt stupid because I don’t have any context on your life to offer advice that would be worth anything. So I’ll just offer up my prayers to our Lord on your behalf!

Dear Lord, I offer up Kush22 to your mercy. Lord your child is suffering greatly and needs your immediate aid and comfort to withstand the trials she is facing. Her very faith is breaking over the strain of addiction and relationship troubles. Lord, you love Kush22 more than anyone will realize in this life. You formed her in her mother’s womb. Your heart breaks to see her suffer. Lord could you please make your divine presence known to her, and send her help? May your Holy Spirit repair the damage to her soul, may He restore her, bring her grace and peace. May He work through others to provide aid and comfort to her. May these trials be used for good; may they draw her nearer to your loving heart. Thank you for hearing our prayers on behalf of Kush22. I pray these things in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God! Amen!

Blessed Mother, on behalf of our suffering sister in Christ, Kush22, I ask for your intercession with your son, Jesus Christ. For her intention I pray: Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with Thee, blessed are Thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of death. Amen!

God bless and keep you, Kush22!!! May Christ’s peace be restored to you!
 
Grant me Your Spirit

Holy Spirit, I need wisdom, discernment and unconditional love. Will You share Yours with me? Help me to persevere in these necessary virtues, even where there is wounding within me greater than anyone is aware.

Help me to carry my daily responsibilities with faith and hope, and mindful of Your command to love God above all and others as self, in Sacramental worship and with practical acts of kindness.

Help me to find healing for injuries and scars that prevent me from fully becoming the person I am created to be. Come into my mind and soul, and help me through the rest of my life.

I need You, Holy Spirit. Please access the gifts and beauty of my unique creation in God’s image. For others’ benefit and for Your glory, give me a deep appreciation and use of the goodness, loveliness joy and blessing of this creation that You mean me to be.

“Pray for a strong spirit, the Spirit of God. And thank God often for yourself, for His gift to you.” Priest in Confession, Divine Mercy Sunday
 
***Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.

Amen.
 
kush22 said:
Some of you may recall earlier threads of total heartbreak and drug addiction, still dealing with them unfortunately, heartbreaker waltz back in like nothing happened only to leave again and even though it’s no excuse it has not stopped usage (although today has been my first straight day in months)

It seems everytime God brings a new person into my life they end up hurting me in some way, shape or form. I get so angry at him for constantly hurting me and can’t understand why. I’m a good person with a heart of gold and would never dream of doing what’s been done to me to anybody.

I don’t want to lose God or my faith but it is getting very difficult to do and want badly to lash out at him.

I pray that he stops torturing my heart, body and soul and finally gives me what I so desperately need 😦
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Phone NA.

Start going to meetings.

Get a sponsor.

Work Step one and Step two.

**1. I realized that I was powerless over alcohol, cocaine, heroin (or whatever) and that my life had become unmanageable.
  1. I came to believe that only a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity.**
And use Steps 3,and 4 to prepare for Step 5!!!
 
Remember, O most loving Virgin Mary,
that never was it known,
that anyone who fled to your protection,
implored your help, or sought your intercession,
was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence,
though burdened by my sins,
I fly to you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother.
To you I come, before you I stand,
sinful and sorrowful.
O Mother of the Word Incarnate,
despise not my petitions, but in your mercy,
hear and answer me.
Amen.
 
Lord, may Kush know that you are all-good and all-loving and only permit to happen what is best for his/her soul and spiritual life. You are only trying to get him/her to love you above all others, and you want him/her to turn to you when others fail. May Kush know that you are only permitting these terrible things to happen because you want Kush to look to you and heaven for help, not towards others and this world. May Kush know that it is the people in his/her life that aren’t loving him/her - not you - for You are Love itself. Please help Kush not to take out his anger on you, as this will only serve to isolate him/her from you even more. You are good and gracious, holy and just, kind and forgiving … you do not deserve to be looked down upon. Help Kush not to sin. Help him/her to find your help through a holy servant of yours (a holy Catholic priest) because he/she is hurting badly and is not seeing things in proper perspective. Bless Kush, O Lord, and make him/her holy. Thank you, Lord, for hearing my prayer.
 
Kush,
I don’t know if this will help but I found it on line and thought I’d pass it along:

Prayer for Faith in Time of Doubt
I don’t even know what to say, Blessed Lord,
I am so confused.
I am caught in the midst of a violent crisis of faith,
so uncertain and doubtful.
I am going through a difficult time
in what touches the depth of my belief.
I am almost tempted to give in
to impatience and despair.
Something within me cries out for you,
yet you seem not to be there.
I have broken away from many childhood beliefs.
I decided to let me faith pass through the filter
of my personal experience.
Suddenly, I found myself too far from you,
from security and certainty.
If I still turn to you, Blessed Lord,
it is because I have not yet lost
the hope of finding
an exit door
for my spiritual anguish
I begin to realize
that by myself I will not be able to overcome
life’s ambiguities and contradictions.
I know the mystery of you continues,
and that my faith-existence is a challenge
to be embraced.
The light of your occasional shadowy presence
makes me see that my crisis comes
from the depth of my maturity,
from the depth of my faith.
The irony, Lord;
there is a crisis of doubt
only because there is faith.
Perhaps I have become too demanding
and too positive.
Open my heart, Lord,
to the right attitude
when confronted with questions
of my faith.
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Amen.
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God be with you friend,
Reg.
 
Sacred Heart of Jesus
We place our trust in Thee

Sacred Heart of Jesus
We place our trust in Thee

Sacred Heart of Jesus
We place our trust in Thee
 
St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle. Be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the Devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray, and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly hosts, by the power of God, thrust into hell Satan, and all the evil spirits, who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.

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St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle. Be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the Devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray, and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly hosts, by the power of God, thrust into hell Satan, and all the evil spirits, who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls.
Amen.
 
  • Ask GOD to strenghten your faith.
6 “Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied.”{Mt 5:6}
  • Anything your are facing is for your own good.
**28" And we know that all things work together for good to them that love GOD , to them who are the called to his purpose." { Romans 8:28 } **
 
Thank you very much everyone but it seems we are all wasting time on me as all prayers about me are falling on deaf ears and seems to be making life more unbearable. I thank you all for your time and as I take a step back from religion I wish you all the best. xx
 
**Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us. **
Queen conceived without original sin, pray for us.
**All you holy men and women of God, intercede for us.

Mother Mary and all ye heavenly hosts, we beg that you pray for Kush22 as she is wandering away from you at this time.

Hold her close dear Jesus!
Amen.**
 
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