TREASURED THOUGHTS FROM THE WRITINGS OF ARCHBISHOP FULTON J. SHEEN
**Conscience, The Interior Sinai **
Conscience is an interior government, exercising the same functions as all human government: namely, legislative, executive and judicial. It has its Congress, its President, and its Supreme Court: it makes its laws, it witnesses our actions in relation to the laws, and finally it judges us.
First of all, conscience legislates. One needs only to live to know that there is in each of us an interior Sinai, from which is promulgated, amid the thunder and lightning of daily life, a law telling us to do good and avoid evil. That interior voice fills us with a sense of responsibility, reminding us, not that we must do certain things, but that we ought to do certain things, for the difference between a machine and a person is the difference between must and ought. Without even being consulted, conscience plays its legislative role, pronouncing some actions to be in themselves evil and unjust, and others in themselves moral and good. Hence, when citizens fail to see a relationship existing between a human law and the law of their own conscience, they feel that they are free to disobey, and their justifying cry is, “My conscience tells me it is wrong.”
Second, conscience not only is legislative, in the sense that it lays down a law, but it is also executive, in the sense that it witnesses the application of the law to actions. An imperfect but helpful analogy is to be found in our own government. Congress passes a law, then the president witnesses and approves it, thus applying the law to the lives of citizens. In like manner, conscience executes laws in the sense that it witnesses the fidelity of our actions to the law. Aided by memory, it tells us the value of our actions; tells us if we were total masters of ourselves; to the extent to which passion, environment, force, and fury influence us; whether our consequences were foreseen or unforeseen; shows us, as in a mirror, the footsteps of all our actions; points its finger at the vestiges of our decisions; comes to us as a true witness and says: “I was there; I saw you do it. You had such and such an intention.” In the administration of human justice the law can call together only those witnesses who have know me externally but conscience as a witness summons not only those who saw me, but summons also me who know myself. And whether I like it or not, I cannot lie to what it witnesses against me.
Finally, conscience not only lays down laws, not only witnesses my obedience or disobedience to them, but it also judges me accordingly. The breast of every person bears a silent court of justice. Conscience is the judge, sitting in judgment, handing down decisions with such authority as to admit of no appeal, for no one can appeal a judgment that one brings against one’s self. That is why there gather about the bar of conscience all the feelings and emotions associated with right and wrong – joy and sorrow, peace and remorse, self-approval and fear, praise and blame.
If I do wrong, it fills me with a sense of guilt from which there is no escape, for if the inmost sanctuary of my being is assaulted by the stern voice of this judge, I am driven out of myself by myself. Whence, then, can I fly but to myself with the sickening sense of guilt, remorse, and disgrace, which is the very hell of the soul? If, on the contrary, conscience approves my action, then there settles upon me, like the quiet of an evening dew, the joy that is a stranger to the passing pleasures of sense. The world may call me guilty, its courts may judge me criminal, its irons may weigh down my flesh and bones like deep-sea anchors, but my soul builds a paradise within, against the raging opposition without, and floods it with an interior peace that the world cannot give and that the insults of the world cannot take from me.
