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I want to try to make this short with my story. 3 years ago I became born again and had an encounter with Christ. Before I hated him and Christians. Until I randomly changed my mind one day and began to pray to him at my lowest. I bowed down to him and submitted. The following year we grew apart. The next I rekindled things until I was madly in love with an atheist and chose him over God. I believe God had him break up with me to say “Look at your actions! You chose a human over me!”. We grew apart again and I once again was tempted to date an atheist. Only that time I was sexually assaulted and I felt as if I sinned against God so badly. I felt ashamed and hopeless. Only until I begged God to control my tongue when my ex was being verbally abusive and he did for me. I felt the holy spirit with me all the way up until I fell back into my reoccurring masturbation habits. I turned back to God and made a decision not to idolize guys anymore and to only date a christian guy who God approve of. I want to overcome my masturbation and pornography viewing. I want to obey God’s will and crucify my sinful desires. However, I didn’t even know I’ve obtained blasphemous beliefs. I thought the catholic church was idolatrous and disobedient to God. God opened my eyes yesterday through my catholic family and made me realize i was WRONG. I turned away from my beliefs and began embracing Catholicism once again. But have I finally crossed the line? Am I even worthy of being saved for disrespecting his true church?
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