…I am still not 100% sure of what is holding me back, I am sad and lost by this as I think I DO want to be a Catholic again. So I was a convert or revert for a short time…I pray to God every night that he guides me and eases my confused mind.
My case is not very different (see link
forums.catholic-questions.org/showpost.php?p=6839524&postcount=35). My son too was instrumental for my return to God. I just want to share this: God does everything to enable us choose freely but does NOT make the choice on our behalf; it is for us to choose. Confusion is invariably the wage of pride, and mind you, pride can be hidden and you may be under the impression that you are humble. Have a word with our Divine Mother and advocate, who is humility personified. I’m sure you will be able to come out of your confusion. You can effectively use the below prayer to her:
Remember Holy Mary, twas never heard or known,
That anyone who sought thee and made to thee her moan,
That any one who hastened for shelter to thy care,
Was ever yet abandoned and left to her despair.
And so to thee my Mother with filial faith I call,
For Jesus dying gave thee as Mother to us all.
To thee O Queen of Virgins, O Mother meek, to thee
I run with trustful fondness, like child to mother’s knee.
See at thy feet a sinner, groaning and weeping sore.
Ah, throw thy mantle over me and let me stray no more.
Thy Son has died to save me, and from His throne on high
His heart this moment yearns for one even such as I.
All His love remember, and oh, remember too,
How prompt I am to purpose, how slow and frail to do,
Yet scorn not my petitions but patiently give ear,
And help me, O My Mother, most loving and most dear.