Can I be allowed back in Church

[Methodi]

Good. So from reading from the bible, we know that God does not want us to have sexual relations with someone’s spouse. We know that it is easy to sin because there will be many who do not repent and will go to hell. Our Lady of Fatima said that there will be more people sent to the eternal fires through sins of the flesh. The temptation from sins of the flesh are strong and Satan knows this is weakspot for mankind. That is why he attacks us so much in this area.

Yes, I surely do understand that, I was sexually addicted for yrs, consenting partners only, & no underage, dont know how i got started in it cept I had a very bad childhood, with very little love shown toward me, so I substituted sex for the love i lacked. In early days, I was very religious, loved my church so dearly, went to daily mass eventually entered a religious order, but left, but there are times today I feel I never should have left, at that time the Priest told me , if anyone ever had a vocation it is you. When I left, My mind went wild, I was waiting on the college steps thinking I am gonna live, & I fell away from the church for 25 yrs or more. My relationship could never be the same as the purity it had before I turned away from the church. But U know, all the years I was away I still prayed & I still felt the presence of the Lord, always felt his warmth & his constant tapping on my shoulder so to speak. How i wish I had them yrs back, they were awesome! There is a God, I know firsthand. Those days, when i prayed, I would go into exstasy. Twice during exstasy I asked the Lord to take me with him to heaven I prayed so hard, he did lift me out of my body, I could look down & see my lifeless body then I would panic & he would gently send me back, again I asked him to take me begged to be with him, he did it again, the same thing happened, he sent me back, he was telling me I really didnt want to go yet.I feel That I should know first hand, That there is indeed a God. Right now I am a man who prays quite a lot at differeent times through the day & night. at night if I awake, I bless myself & utter a prayer, so maybe I am not so bad afterall, but I do have a lot of penance to do. I thank You for Listening to this story, Its true, as one thing i have going for me is I was never a man to lie about things. I know u didnt ask for all this But I feel i can trust U with it,thanks again for listening, & as far as the Church goes, if only people would live up to its rules, they could save themselves a lot of grief

 

[Lee_M]

Yes, I surely do understand that, I was sexually addicted for yrs, consenting partners only, & no underage, dont know how i got started in it cept I had a very bad childhood, with very little love shown toward me, so I substituted sex for the love i lacked. In early days, I was very religious, loved my church so dearly, went to daily mass eventually entered a religious order, but left, but there are times today I feel I never should have left, at that time the Priest told me , if anyone ever had a vocation it is you. When I left, My mind went wild, I was waiting on the college steps thinking I am gonna live, & I fell away from the church for 25 yrs or more. My relationship could never be the same as the purity it had before I turned away from the church. But U know, all the years I was away I still prayed & I still felt the presence of the Lord, always felt his warmth & his constant tapping on my shoulder so to speak. How i wish I had them yrs back, they were awesome! There is a God, I know firsthand. Those days, when i prayed, I would go into exstasy. Twice during exstasy I asked the Lord to take me with him to heaven I prayed so hard, he did lift me out of my body, I could look down & see my lifeless body then I would panic & he would gently send me back, again I asked him to take me begged to be with him, he did it again, the same thing happened, he sent me back, he was telling me I really didnt want to go yet.I feel That I should know first hand, That there is indeed a God. Right now I am a man who prays quite a lot at differeent times through the day & night. at night if I awake, I bless myself & utter a prayer, so maybe I am not so bad afterall, but I do have a lot of penance to do. I thank You for Listening to this story, Its true, as one thing i have going for me is I was never a man to lie about things. I know u didnt ask for all this But I feel i can trust U with it,thanks again for listening, & as far as the Church goes, if only people would live up to its rules, they could save themselves a lot of grief

I’m glad you told this story. May the peace and the love of the Lord be with you always. The same for you Serap.