Boppaid,
Is this because the Baptist services are easily understood and fun to participate in (clapping and singing)? If not, then what does a Baptist service do to give you the feeling that God is present more than a Catholic Mass?
No. The service I go to is nice in some of those aspects (no clapping, though), but that’s not it. First, I see Christ in the scripture. We are constantly reading scripture. I never knew my Bible as well as I do now that I’ve begun attending this Chruch. Of course, that was my own fault, before, but it’s not as “in your face” in the CC in my experience as it is in this other Church. I realize that the mass reads through the entire Bible in 3 years’ time (or something like that), but it’s snippets here and snippets there. Although I’ve 'heard" the entire bible in Catholic service, I didn’t know it. Of course, it could be argued that that’s what specific Bible Study is for. However, I’ve never been to a Catholic Bible Study that is as informative and enlightening as the services I’ve attended. Maybe it’s this specific Pastor, I don’t know.
Additionally it’s also because I feel closer to Christ than I ever did before. My understanding of Catholicism is that it is very legalistic (although members on this board have been helping me with that). I get so entangled with allt he “rules” of Catholicism that I totally lose sight of Christ. The rules become my focus, rather than Him. Additionally, I always fail in keeping the Church’s rules (as does everyone, we’re all sinners), but I get so distraught that I feel I’m never “good enough” and I give up. In the Protestant Church, there is more of an emphasis on living for christ and living WITH Christ, and not trying to make ourselves “good enough”. They accept we will never be good enough, and that’s why Christ died for us. That, truly, makes more sense to me. When I start thinking that way, I’m no longer afraid to approach God and make Him the center of my life.
ALso, they way protestants worship seems to be more inline with how they worshiped in the times of the apostles. I find this comforting. Of course, this alone is no reason to leave the Church. None of these things I’m discussing ALONE is reason to consider leaving the Church. However, when i look at them all together, I start to wonder.
Oh yeah, I just don’t believe in papal infallibility. I really don’t. I try and try and try. I’ve read countless Catholic articles and a few Catholic books. I’ve discussed this with my confessor. I’ve discussed it with other clergy as well. Even when I “force” myself to believe it (by telling myself that if the church says it’s so, it must be) I just dont.
Many of us seek camaraderie and companionship in “worship services” and that is fine but an understanding of what the Mass is and how the Eucharist is the True Presence of Jesus brings more joy and gratitude to me than being in the television audience of Oprah, or on a chat room for ‘Lost’ and 'Desperate Housewives."
I also have my doubts about the “true presence”. I’m still trying to know what I believe on that one.
Don’t confuse nice people with the Presence or you will surely be disappointed. There is no end to creative, personality based (see Haggard’s ‘church’ in Colorado) “worship services.”
But you do believe that christ lives within all his believers, do you not?
If you are speaking of God in Church then to a Catholic it means the Eucharist. Please clarify your points, thanks!
But to me, it doesn’t. Christ doesn’t just exist in the Eucharist. He exists in His people in whom the Holy Spirit resides.
Thanks for discussing this with me. I am so confused at what to do, or where I belong.