I grew up in the church, and like most of my friends, we went through the motions because our parents made us. In coledge I drifted away. (why attend a meaningless cerimony?)
Roughly 17 years later I attended a revival at a Weslyan church.(bible believing prtestant). For reasons I don’t understand, I stood up at the invitation, and had hands laid on me. The minister said something that I could not hear. I felt mysefl floating backwards. And I met love on the floor. I don’t know how long I was on the floor, but I was washed with a love that was indescribable. For at least 6 months after that I had a love affair with the creator of the universe in such an intesnse way that it was hard to do my job as an engineer. I often wondered if a demon had been cast out.
Whats funny is after another 15 years I find, (is this possible?) myself becomming more and more feeling and less anylitical.
After being a Baptist and chasimatic (at different times) I realized that sometimes God has to take someone like me the long way around to get on the right path.
Oh by the way I was never a great one for touges. But one night, driving home from the revival I asked, how come every one else has tougues but me? Three sylables came to mind:
Sasha cum se.
That was in 1990. My wife and I were given an adoption referal for Alexander (from kazickstahn) in 2004. His nickname of couse is Sasha, and he was born in 2000, ten years after his name came to mind.
To me it seemed the choice was perfectly clear. Would you believe after over a year of being home, our son is ranked some where above the 90th percentile for inteligence. I don’t know why, but it seems like this gift was preordained, the perfect match in spite of us. I can’t see or hear in him anything but a red blooded american boy.
Maybe I’m saying you can’t put God in a box. He may take you one way and me another. With me, I had to stick my hands in His side before I WOULD BELEIVE. The amazing part of this is He put up with me and continues to do so.
There are so many things in my life that lined up, almost impossibly, to get him here.
OBTW I apoligize, engineers can’t spell without a spellcheck
I came back to the church almost 2 years ago. I’m a kid in a candy store looking at the wisdom of 2000 years. Struggling with limited time and how to budget it. Free of a religious system that had no power.
I don’t know where to begin teaching my son all that the Lord has done for us. It’s exausting trying to keep up with a 5 year old in kindergarten.
I hope some of that made sense.