I despise generalizations almost as much as I tend to make them, so I’ll try to speak purely from my own experiences
I was born and raised a cradle Catholic with hardly any instruction from my parents. When they stopped attending Mass, so did I. In high school my life had no visible Catholic practice but I always felt a nagging for God–I just didn’t know how or where to look.
In tenth grade I was invited to a “Charismatic” prayer meeting and from there my life immediately changed. Something about it just clicked for me. I quickly became indoctrinated into this new atmosphere of praise and worship, speaking in tongues, and Life in the Spirit Seminars. I became a Youth Leader and started Worship Leading and delivering talks to other youths. For the first two years life was an incredible rush.
And then I realized something: my whole faith was built up on emotion. Surely there had to be something deeper for me?
I started researching more about the Catholic Church, especially apologetics articles, Scott Hahn books and Theology and Sanity, and found the substantial, hard truth I was looking for. I had a faith firm in 2000 years of Tradition and history to hold and latch onto.
I remained in the prayer group and realized just how un-Catholic it was, despite it being a Catholic Charismatic prayer group. Along with some like-minded and spiritually-maturing friends, I tried to reform it to no avail. At best we were able to maintain a sort of independence from the Adults and steer the Youth into a more Catholic direction.
Prayer Meeting attendance was encouraged and sometimes enforced yet the leaders hardly mentioned / promoted attendance at Mass.
I was a mix of emotion when I found out, on my own, all about the True Presence! Filled with joy and wonder at the extent of Jesus’ love for us; and filled with anger and frustration with my prayer group for never even mentioning this vital truth to me or my fellow youth members.
Like someone mentioned earlier (way earlier) in this thread, I was hungry for spiritual feeding but kept coming away empty with nothing but the same Prosperity-Gospel reading of the Bible: Christians aren’t meant to suffer; chase God and money will “chase after you”; if you aren’t healed yet, you’re praying wrong.
After leaving in 2004 I’ve been growing more and I consider myself an Orthodox Catholic in regards to where I live. I’m from the Los Angeles Archdiocese, which from what I gather suffers from a terrible amount of liberalism. But I’m hungry for knowledge and learning as much sound teaching as I can.
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I’m willing to side with the Popes on their approval of the Catholic Charismatic Renewal as they knew / know it.
But, here’s the danger:
Not every group that claims to be a part of the CCR truly is.
I doubt the authenticity of my former group. This doesn’t mean that truly devout Catholics aren’t a part of it. What I mean is, their membership in the group has nothing to do with their Catholicity in my opinion.
The true movement of the Holy Spirit will lead people to the Church that Jesus founded. I thank God that He led me back to the Catholic Church through my former group. But many are left behind still that do not place the primacy of their faith practice within the Sacraments of the Church.
I’ve come across CCR prayer groups that are unquestionably Orthodox Catholic whose members are as devout as I can hope to be. But my former group was dangerously teetering on the edge of spiritual self-reliance.